with me tonight.

What am I doing here? -.-

2008-11-18T20:32:00.003+08:00

OKAY I SHALL POST A PHOTO HERE AND I'M GONE. :D

Shall I add the fact that I heart my holidays? Read my livejournal for more because I post there more often. (:

You see somehow I cant forget you

I've switched

2008-10-28T21:38:00.002+08:00

This is my 115th post and I decided to switch to livejournal.

Here's my link.

http://loveevanesce.livejournal.com/

& my skill at editing my livejournal still isnt very adept so i wont mind if someone helps me. :D

88 COLOURS! :D

2008-10-27T22:06:00.001+08:00

Charis brought this to my house today and I fell in love with it. Lol. I want this for my Xmas present yo! :D

Somehow, I cant forget.

2008-10-24T22:58:00.003+08:00

My blog is dead dead dead dead dead dead dead dead dead dead. LOL. I shall make it alive with my liveliness.

Okay, here's 10 interesting things that happened this week.

1) CATWALK TRAININGS AT DHS! :D

It's fun being with the girls. The amount of crap we talk about is hilarious. And it's great to have a chance to walk in those uber sexy heels mummy bought for me. I'm starting to get really confortable in them. (:

2) DJ MAX! :D

I've been playing this game like crazy on my psp and depriving myself of sleep. HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO.

3) TALKING TO ZHIDAN AT YOSHINOYA!

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! DANDAN! I LOVE YOU LA! Only you know my true feelings which I tend to hide.

4) HUGGING JINGWEN LIKE CRAZY BEFORE SHE GOES FOR IP! <3

I feel like giving you a million more hugs and many more. Girlf! I miss you already. T.T

5) GOING FOR THE MEDICAL CHECKUP WITH MUMMY! :D

Even though I saw Mummy's really gross stitches, I really thought the procedure of changing the patch was really cool! And her doctor's office is like some photo museum! There were so many pictures!

6) GOING TO SCHOOL WITH HUIFEN EVERY MORNING! (:

Huifen is fun to go school with! We can be uncivilised together yo!

7) CAMWHORING IN CLASS ON THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL! T.T

2A YOU GUYS ARE AMAZING! I seriously think we are the greatest clas ever in the history of AHS. You just feel the love when you walk into the class. <3

8) WINNING THE OUTSTANDING CLASS AWARD!

2A KEMAMA OLAYOLAYAHAH 2A KEMAMA OLAYOLAYAHAH! 2A *screams* 2a *screams* AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA BAH! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

9) BLINGING MY W980! <3

My phone is blinged with colourful gems now! Mummy called me little ahlian. STUPID. But still, I heart my chiochio phone.

10) MY RESULTS! (:

English: A2

Chinese: C5

Maths: A1

Science:A1

Geography: A1

History: A2

Literature: A1

D&T: A1

Home Ec: A1

Art: A1

Overall: 76.7

Class position: 22/36

Level position: 76/384

Comments: Valerie is a critical thinker(O.O) who effectively analyses situations to reach workable conclusions. She is a valuable asset to the class as she enthusiatiscally participates in class activities.

Not bad eh. I'm rather happy I guess. My parents are happy so I'm too. (:

Okay I'm done crapping. Byebye.

You see somehow I cant finish what I set out to do and that it was to erase you.

You are special?

2008-10-20T21:06:00.004+08:00

I went shopping today with my dearest girlfs! :D

We walked around tm then to bugis. I was rather sleepy in the beginning but Zhidan and Jingwen definitely made me more awake! Before I met them, I went with mummy to Gleneagles for her checkup and she treated me to Delifrance. YAY! THANK YOU MUMMY! And she brought me to buy my pumps for the fashion show. They are like 3 inches high? I'm wearing them around the house now to get use to them and they are rather confortable suprisingly! However, I'm like 1.75m tall now. Super gigantic. -.-

Like how I described them to gen. They are black, patent, hot and sexy. (:

So unkind.

2008-10-19T20:03:00.002+08:00

I don't understand myself at times. I just keep denying and avoiding the things I truly want. It seems like I'm bent on destroying myself completely. When did I start to lose all hope in myself? I can't bring myself to love anymore. I've hurt too many to even love myself. I want to give it a shot. Erase all those insignificant little details but I can't. I'm too focused to even get the big picture. I'm seriously an big fat idiot.

The world is being unkind yet again. For those who feel like that all isn't fine, I understand how you feel. Despite that, please don't end up being an ass to people like me because you're not in the best of moods.

This sucks. ):

Perhaps.

2008-10-17T23:20:00.007+08:00

These people are the most amazing supercalifragilistic classmates anyone can have. I LOVE YOU 2A! Let's keep singing our mdm zee songs and chanting our stupid lines and screaming our lungs out at every event! We can say without a doubt that we're the most bonded class in the whole school! (:

TYBY WAS FUN TODAY! We got to leave class early. YAY! It was stressful but a total success!Maybe I actually do care for you. Maybe. It's still very vague, still very unsure. I don't know myself but I don't wanna fall in love right now. I rather close my heart now because I don't take heartbreaks well.

Miss Independent

2008-10-15T20:51:00.012+08:00

Pictures of love! It took a long time to upload them thanks to my horribly stupid brain but the pain's worth it I guess. They are kinda jumbled up and sorry I was too lazy to go edit them! Zhidan, you can get the photos from here. (:

Catwalk workshop tommorrow! I gotta have the style, attitude, energy and the X factor! :D

I dont care. -.-

Strut your stuff babeh!

2008-10-14T19:40:00.005+08:00

THE PERIOD AFTER THE EXAMS SUCK! I NEED NOT ELABORATE WHY. FREAK IT.

I'm so bored everyday la. I want to go out and don't want to go out. Maybe I should start to have a new hobby. Any suggestions? I don't want to keep spending money going out. And today's catwalk workshop was fun! Even though my leg felt like it was going to dislocate, the thrill of strutting my stuff and posing was great! I can't wait for choreography to start. I need a good pair of kitten heels as well too! 3 inch heels may be a little too much for me to handle hor. LOL. And mummy's going to be discharged tomorrow! YAY! I miss her like shit even though I see her nearly everyday in the hospital. :x

And you, yes you. Choose to believe the speculations if you wish. Anyway, I can swear it's not true but yet you seem to choose to believe those people who don't even know me. How well do you know me to judge me? Please la, we might have known each other for quite long but you don't understand me and neither do I understand you. So don't go around assuming things about me that is a complete piece of bullshit. I'm disappointed in you but I still regard you as a friend. And seriously, I'm not the person they say I am. Do they even know the real me? -.-

Quiz time once more

2008-10-11T00:05:00.002+08:00

HOHO! Kope this from ZANN's blog

Who is the most:
A. Annoying
MA YUN WEI! LOL. Sorry Mr. Ma.
B. Boring
Someone.
C. Cute
HUIFEN!
D. Diligent
Errrr ... KUNMEI!
E. Evil
No one! (:
F. Funny
People who make me laugh lor
G. Good looking
HEHEHEHEHEHE! DONT WANT SAY LEH.
H. Hyper
Oh. Vivien. Don't kill me viv. HAHAHA!
I. Intelligent
ME. DUH.
J. Jolly
Minli.
K. Kiddy
ME. LOL. DEPRIVED CHILDHOOD!
L. Lame
Everyone I know.
M. Meticulous
Not sure
N. Nosey
O.O
O. Optimistic
Josephine! :D
P. Playful
Errrr, not sure. Everyone I know?
Q. Quarrelsome
My bro. -.-
R. Reliable
Everyone I trust. (:
S. Sexy
Me la. :x
T. Trustworthy
My girlfs!
V. Vulgar
Me. LOL.
X. Xenophobic
?
Y. Yappy
Not sure
Z. Zanny
?

WOO [:

Bad day.

2008-10-10T23:33:00.004+08:00

MOMMY GET WELL SOON! I MISS YOU ALREADY! ):

Today isnt a good day. It's really not a good day. Other than a few things which I rather be kept secret that made me happy, everything is just making me damn bloody pissed and fed up. I guess happiness decided to pass me by today. No matter what, I've decided to keep on smiling as God will there for me every step of the way.

THE EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER BY THE WAY! HOPEFULLY MY RESULTS WILL TURN OUT FINE! (:fate is playing its little game with us yet again. i see you everywhere i go. -.-

Mannequin [:

2008-10-09T17:18:00.008+08:00

Burn up my heart and I'll give you its ashes to scatter.

ONE MORE DAY TO TOTAL FREEDOM! YAY! The papers I have done were okay. Surprisingly, I was able to complete majority of the HCL paper. It's a big achievement as I have a fantastic track record of leaving numerous blanks. Maths was tougher than I expected! I tried my best already so it's all in God's hands now i guess. As for geog and eng, I believe I will meet my expectations. Hopefully, science won't be too hard but I will still try my best! (:

FRIDAY COME NOW! I want my sakura dinner with my dearest clique! D:Thanks for the concern, love.

Kiss my ass, sucker.

2008-10-07T21:02:00.005+08:00

I miss this two sisters the most now. I love you two more than any boyf I will ever have! Let's go out after our exams yo! :D

It's the day before the eoys and I'm blogging. HOHO! Seriously, I'm fucking bored and stressed out. My hair is turning white strand by strand. My skin is wrinkling up crease by crease. GAHHHHHHH! I'm getting old.

To make things worse, some asshole is trying to piss me off. Well thank you hor. You're just bringing entertainment into my oh so boring life. Honestly, I can't be bothered by a low life like you. KISS MY ASS. Woooo, you brought out the bitch in me. Fuck off okay? [:

Anyway, I realised I've been super vulgar recently. Opps. :x

How will I know the right way to love you?

2008-10-05T11:56:00.002+08:00

But with you

There is no guarantee

Only expired warranty

A bunch of broken parts

And I can't seem to find your heart

4 more day to EOYs!

I might go on hiatus until friday! Stay tuned for more. LOL. And people, please tag on my tagboard if I should take history or geog or elit next year. THANKS! (:

100th post!

2008-10-03T21:22:00.002+08:00

It's a game of lies and deceit. I know this game way too well and I know I won't lose.

The week was boring as it draws closer to the EOYs. Home ec was fun today. I made potato chicken pie. It's still in my fridge. HAHA! After school, Yijun taught me cumulative frequency. Thanks senior! And yea, afterwards, I went to the library to study with Fengjing and Lydia. I revised a little maths then smsed for most of the time. Talking to these two juniors are super fun. Thanks for making me forget how crappy my life is! I'm pretty bothered by something but I decided to focus on more important stuff. Thanks vivien, jojo and gen for letting me nag away! ;D

SMS RESET TMR BABY! WOOHOO!

VIVIEN'S BIRTHDAY! <3

2008-09-30T19:35:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVIEN LIM WEN YAN! (:

Whoo! There's so much I have to say to you! Rock on, sista! And trust my GUT feeling, it's strong! Enjoy your 14th birthday! I love ya! x3

Something that should be kept undisclosed happened today. Not much feeling about it. I've been noticing it for a really long period of time already. Hope it isn't me just being too sensitive.

And yea, 3J moved up to the 5th floor. Welcome to the 5th floor, Kellyanne, Yijun, Hanyang, Alvin and all the other 3J-ians! Don't die from climbing up and down non stop. And for the person who injured their foot/leg/ankle/toe? in 3K, I wish you a speedy recovery! Recover and return back to the 5th level! :D

Okay, that was random. I doubt anyone from 3J and 3K will see this post. Aiya, who cares? Just blog for fun. Nothing much going on to blog about anyway. :B

Empty promises.

2008-09-28T11:56:00.004+08:00

I'm getting excited over stupid things yet again. Focus!

This week has been "eventful". The only thing I see is EOY pasted in practically in every single place I go. Okay, maybe I'm not going crazy and delusional. BUT I'M STRESSED. D:

Friday, zhidan, huifen and the guys came over to my house to destress. We ended up playing asshole taiti and telling ghost stories with my mum while eating mac. 老师嫁老大 was hilarious. I laughed like some idiot throughout the whole movie. I'm particularly amazed by the malaysian accent now. (:

Sat, 3 hours of science extra lesson. It was enriching and rewarding. However, the abortion video left really deep scars in my heart. What kind of cruelty and monstrosity has man created? It was way too evil and disgusting to comprehend what I saw. There was one part when they plucked out the head of a developed foetus from the mother's you know where. That footage was bloody, gore and one of the most monstrous things I ever saw. An innocent life had been destroyed just because the mothers did not bother to practice safe sex. It was blantantly committing a murder indirectly. ):

When will I see your face again?

2008-09-23T20:03:00.006+08:00

Watching the world pass by. I wonder when would I see your face again.

I'm getting more moody and weird as the exams come closer. DAMN IT. Shoo exams shoo! Someone please cheer me up. Anyone. I need someone to be zihigh with me. Everyone is so sombre nowadays. Vivien and me aren't going to the toilet more than two times a day now thanks to the super stressful lessons. We are actually listening for once. Zhidan! The probability of val going to the toilet more than 2 times a day is no longer 100%. :OSuprisingly, I really miss you. Even a stupid hello can make me smile.

{/add

Yet again another disappointment. For once, I got a B4 for my maths test and I failed my piano practical yet again. Work hard val. Dont be disheartened. (:

/end}

Moving Mountains.

2008-09-21T12:05:00.004+08:00

Paper 1 was great in a sense. LOL. I wrote until I couldn't bend my arms for half an hour. But I hope all will work out and I would be proud of my achievements. (:

I'm lazy to upload my photos yet again. Another day? And I'm lazy to reply my tagbacks too. Another day? Laziness is the new love. (:

Okay maybe I will upload 1 or 2 photos.

Cherie darling! Honoured to see yourself here? HAHAHAHAHA! NASI LEMAK! And no need so glam all the time! You are already damn glam. Love ya! <3>

An unglam pic of me. :B This shows how lazy I am. YAY! I told you I'm lazy. (:

I have a list of things to do after the exams. Let me list them down. (:

Shopping with Zhidan.
Sakura Buffet with JieMeis.
Sentosa Outing with Girlfriends.
More basketball!
Learn a new sport? Ice skating or rollerblading perhaps?
To complete the whole twilight saga.
To do some charity work.
HAVE MORE SLEEP! (:

I think I shall add more to the list as the days go by. Mummy said we're going to hong kong this year and japan next year. YAY! I ask her for a trip to egypt after my O levels and bro's PSLE. I'm crossing my fingers. :B

Darn it.

2008-09-17T19:47:00.004+08:00

I really hate the period before the exams. Everything is just so damn screwed.

My national weather study project is screwed.
My revision is screwed.
I'm gaining weight.
& I'm missing someone like shit.

School's mundane. I don't have the mood to do my favourite things which include eating and texting. Going home with the bubble tea gang is fun but the joy is always so short lived. EXAMS DISAPPEAR! I can't seem to enjoy life with the pressure of streaming. ):

I get a feeling deep down, inside,
Something just aint right.
I get a feeling that tells me I know,
Baby you never show...

Rewind.

2008-09-16T19:54:00.004+08:00

I want to blind myself from the mistakes I have made but they just can't seem to rewind.

Today was weird. I went to burger king to study with huifen after school but something was bugging me the whole day. The talk about cyber wellness really left me wondering and I regret some things I have done. It's nothing about cyberbullying but about online friends.

Gen, you should understand how I feel. The so called just wanna be friends act but we can see through its hidden meaning. Thanks for being my role model in handling the situation only that mine's a little more sticky. ):

And I need you boy. Only you seem to be able to erase those miseries I have. I'm breaking with every step I take.

Define what you mean to me

2008-09-15T20:02:00.005+08:00

First day of the week and I'm already feeling the energy. I bet it's going to be great throughout the week. Friends, school and love. Everything is just bloody good. I won't exchange my life for anything. Coming to appreciate my life has been my forte these past few months I realised. (:

I love these people. They never fail to make my day lor.

except for s la. extra fuck.

And you. Yes you. Your out of the blue texts always bring a smile to my face. Thanks. Keep doing what you do.

TAGBACKS (:

2008-09-11T22:46:00.003+08:00

TAGBACKS! (:
starting from august 20.

zhidan: HAHAHA. i love my masterpiece too. :D
Potential vandaliser. Tsk tsk. (:

clara!!: hi valerie!!! i bet u miss me rite?? i juz knew it... wa hahaha!!! heehee.. i was juz way to bored ... haha!!! gd luck for ur EOY!!!
HEY! I miss you lor. And thnks! You too.

#Brandonn: lol u rli go post arh? -.- hahahas. hiiii xD
Of course. LOL. HELLO!

jianyou: i saw someone extra ard here
Who ah who ah? HAHAHAHAHA!

vivien: HAHAHAHHA, the oldest text msg is i send one! right right!? ha, cya!
Yeap. Seeya!

TANYING: like zhidan, i dont miss you too! hahahahahahahaha!! ;D you are you and you are always there! Hor?
Ya lor. TANYING I AGREE WITH YOU. (:

glen lim: the song lucky is cool
Yeap. Jason Mraz is OMG amazing.

zhidan: i dun miss u val (:
Too bad lor.

des: o.0 hw u noe hu im scoldin. n u hate him meh o.0
Ya. It's obvious. And yea, I just act like I don't only.

7 Sep 08, 18:02FENGJING(: you should miss the jelly fish also!
JELLY FISHES! HAHAHA!

7 Sep 08, 14:47shelton: we miss the old you
7 Sep 08, 14:47shelton: ya
7 Sep 08, 14:47shelton: really try to cheer up kays?
7 Sep 08, 14:47shelton: hey val
7 Sep 08, 14:43shelton:
7 Sep 08, 14:43shelton: ya your cursor
I didnt change in any way la. -.-

pris & zann: zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzieee ^^
pris & zann: zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
pris & zann: zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
pris & zann: lalallalalalalallalalalalalala. okayye we're gonna do your quizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
pris & zann: wooooooooooooooooooooooooo~
pris & zann: YAY VAL YAY YAY YAY ;DD
YAY! DO THE QUIZ! ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ BACK! :D

JULIA: RELINK!
HAHA! relinked!

gen: eh. no reply????
gen: i feel like spamming now.
gen: oh. like your new song.
gen: and my name appears so many times. i'm flattered. xDD
gen: wow. change until like that. (:
GEN. YOU. ARE. RANDOM!

jessica: hahahhs, laughter management? do you need that? you're always laughing like crazy, and its GOOD! (:
IT"S SCARY! D:

zhidan: haha val! ME ME i help u in mood swing management! ;D
THANKS! (:

AH MAOMAO: HELLO (; YOU'RE SUPER MISSED !
YOU TOO!

Cherie: finally tagged haha:D
Cherie: hi val darling <33333
HEY CHERIE BABY! ya la. finally tagged.

LYDIA !: tags! hahaha (:
thnks! (:

FENGJING(: spam
FENGJING(: spam
FENGJING(: spam
FENGJING(: spam
FENGJING(: spam
FENGJING(: spam
FENGJING(: spam
FENGJING(: spam
FENGJING(: spam
-.-

zhidan: ya i damn miss china also!):
zhidan: ya damn sad! nvm sch reopen tell me everything ;D
YAYAYAYAYAYA! LOL.

vivien: HOHO HI
HEHE HELLO

★☆Rebecca☆★: soso...I CANT WAIT FOR EOY TO BE OVER THAN WE CAN GO OUT! =PP
★☆Rebecca☆★: OHMIIGOSH!!! ilu so much manzxz. VAL!! sry I din tag you for so long...I haven been tagging people lately.kinda bz. =/ hee.
HAHAHAHAHA! YEA! I SO WANNA GO OUT WITH YOU! (:

ONGHUIFEN :D: I LOVE CHINA TOO ! Val + Ashley candid shots ! I'm sure you still remember them right ?
Yes I do! DELETE THEM! Lol

zhidan: hahaha. im here to haunt u too! BOOOO *combine forces with pris* XD
Zhidan's long hair will freak me out. HAHAHAHA!

pris: RAWRRR
pris: ima here to haunt u too !!!!!
AHHHHH! GHOST! ROAR!

myw: u call me spam then i shall spam
myw: u call me spam then i shall spam
myw: u call me spam then i shall spam
myw: u call me spam then i shall spam
myw: u call me spam then i shall spam
myw: u call me spam then i shall spam
myw: the 8 of us =D 3 boys 5 girls =D haha zl so cute
myw: haha the china corruptors =D
OKAY ... random.

FENGJING(: hey val. your blog not suitable to be viewd under morzilla firefox! D: do consider about this matter next time when you change your bs! hahaha. with love, feng feng feng feng jing jing jing jing.
LOL. Thanks for telling me.

zhidan: *shi+
zhidan: n ya val, NO LIP MONSTER LOL LOL LOL. okay **** -.- learn the art of zi highin from pris -.-"
zhidan: HAHAHA VAL. I NOE WADS UR SECRET! but den u so idiot force u also dun wan -.-" hahahahaha XD
Zhidan is zihigh. WOW. LOL.

pris: MWAHAHA
pris: GD LUCKS FR TMW'S TEST
pris: HELLO WOMAN!
Thanks!

jessica: ily!
jessica: hellohello. your sister here tagged you! hahahhs.
Love ya too!

TANYING: thanks val, i know (: hahahahaha! Thanks for all the support and stuffs, love ya! ;D
NO PROBLEM!

esp: i go find yi jun and jamie's blog now tata
esp: Hey yo wei!! valval!! zilian sia..haha xD yay bb match tmrw!! -hugs-
Hahas, okay.

zhidan: HELLOOOO VAL ;D HAHA we hav a common INTEREST huh? XD
I hate our common interest la! xD

jianyou: cause im very short T.T okay wdv xD
jianyou: u know i read ur post i damn sad T.T
DONT WORRY! You will grow taller!

TANYING: DAMN NICE LA HOR!!!!!
TANYING: VAL! that pic , i kope le hor! (:
YEAP! I love it loads too, it has been my msn dp for nearly a month le.

glenn: y u keep chging blogskin
glenn: lol lol lol llol lol
glenn: hi
because it's fun. LOL.

shelton;D: :D
shelton;D: i got tag hor
shelton;D: TAGGED:D
-.-

des: wtf turn out that jd dun e ven noe myw name in the 1st place, n he no intention of helpin. LOL.
des: eh u noe jd nvr tell hu is the other person, so currently he is still quite safe if no1 complaints
This matter was hilarious la! LOL.

Don't let love get you down.

2008-09-10T18:52:00.006+08:00

I'm super stressed with work these past days. When I'm stress, I bitch and I hate bitching. What to do? Should I have pictures or tagbacks?

PICTURES

It was this monday when the guys decided to have their pearl war or something. Damn stupid. I sat there like some mummy watching them play their hearts out. POOR BRANDON HAD HIS FIRST NOSEBLEED thanks to shelton.

2A'o8 left our mark at eighteen chefs yesterday! Zhidan, Huifen and me spent like 15min decorating the glass wall with our graffiti but Zhidan's masterpiece is still the nicest!

I'm lazy to do my tagbacks. Maybe tmr? Not sure.

Don't you pass me by. I'm done with wondering and waiting for the truth. Come on. We're not doing any good for each other. But if you decide to play it like a game, then bring it on, let's play. Love isn't going to get me down

Yay!

2008-09-08T22:07:00.001+08:00

It's great to see things that were once broken be patched up together. It's like drinking hot chocolate on a cold winter's day. Hot and fuzzy on the inside. (:

Tagbacks tomorrow. (:

Here we go again

2008-09-07T17:42:00.002+08:00

Write 20 random facts about yourself,then tag the same amount of people as the minutes it takes you to write the facts.

1) I'm TALL for my age.
2) I love snakes.
3) I find yam ice cream really really nice.
4) I like to sing in the bathroom but who doesnt?
5) I couldn't do the monkey's bars until this year.
6) I don't fall asleep easily.
7) I can look at someone without even turning my head.
8) I play with my hair every few seconds.
9) I love Paramore.
10) I like to cry and lie that it's my contacts lens giving me a problem.
11) I can eat udon everyday and not feel bored.
12) I write poetry and tear it to pieces afterwards.
13) I remember things that I arent supposed to know.
14) I get dizzy when there's super glue near me
15) I talk a lot as in a lot.
16) I pretend that I'm Audrey Hepburn sometimes.
17) I like to text but I hate talking on the phone.
18) I love my piano to bits.
19) I only wore my pe shorts like 10 times before changing to FBTs permanently.
20) I love to buy bags until there's no space in my cupboard.

6 minutes. Anyone can do this quiz. It's fun.

I miss school.

2008-09-07T12:17:00.002+08:00

Mommy finally allowed me to get my helix piercing. WOOHOO! But I decided to do it at the end of year, just in case my ear swells into mammoth proportions and I have to hide at home.

Yesterday was 2 great day going out with my 2 sisters. Camwhored a lot but I'm lazy to upload them. I shall upload them tomorrow?

I miss school.
I miss zhidan.
I miss vivien.
I miss josephine.
I miss jingwen.
I miss huifen.
I miss my punchbags.
I miss doggy.
I miss my seat beside the window.
I MISS 2A!

School start soon! D:

Oh so dumb.

2008-09-05T17:51:00.002+08:00

Stupid moments like this make me wanna do a quiz! (:

01: What is the question that you haven't found an answer to yet?
Why is my head so damn big? D:
02: Do you ever turn you cell phone off?
Not really. I need to reply my texts.
3: What happened at 10.00am today?
Training.
04: When did you last cry?
This week. Don't ask why.
05: What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
Just peanut butter itself is nice.
06: What do you want in your life right now?
Oh nothing much. Just a sense of satisfaction in everything I do.
07: Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
Umbrella ella ella eh eh eh. But singing in the rain is fun!
08: What’s your favourite thing to have on your bed?
Poo poo. My 10 year old soft toy. (:
09: What bottom are you wearing now?
Royal Blue FBTs.
10: What’s the nicest text in your inbox say?
SECRET. It's really really really sweet.
11: Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
Nope.
12: Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
Nope.
13: What was the last movie you caught?
Clone Wars. D:
14: What are you proud of?
A decade of playing piano and counting.
15: What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
"Val, don't think i'm going, my leg quite pain. ):"
16: What was the last song you sang out loud?
Never Let This Go by Paramore.
17: Do you have any nicknames? What are they?
Val, VEH-LUH-RY.
18: What does your last received text message say? Who was it from?
"Lol. 5 per cent leh." From Genevieve.
19: What time did you go to bed last night?
1am
20: Are you currently happy?
So so.
21: Who gives you best advice?
Zhidan & Vivien.
22: Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
YES. IT'S BLOODY GOOD.
23: Who did you talk on phone last night?
No one. I dont like to talk on the phone. I sms. (:
24: Is anything bugging you right now?
Yes, something.
25: What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
Genevieve
26: Do you wear toe socks?
I think they are difficult to wear!
27: Who was the last person you missed a call from?
Sebastian
28: Have you ever had your heartbroken?
Ya. -.-
29: What annoys you most in a person?
Their narrow mindedness and self centered attitude
30: Do you have a crush on anyone?
Errr, not a crush la.
31: Have you ever done cocaine?
I don't even know any drug dealer.
32: What is the colour of your room?
Pink.
33: Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
If I'm that desperate?
34: Do you believe in the saying ‘talk is cheap’?
Huh?
35: Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
Me.
36: Who was the last person to hug you?
Amandape! (:
38: Do you have a life?
DUH.
39: Have you ever think someone died, when they really didn’t?
YES, once and I felt so fucking guilty.
40: What is the reason behind your profile song?
Secret.
41: Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
I dont remember.
42: Last time you smiled?
Now?
43: Have you changed this year?
Yeap.
44: What are you listening right now?
Cold, Cold Heart by Norah Jones
45: Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
Genevieve via sms.
46: Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Both. HAHAHAHA!
47: Is there a quote you live by?
"Let them eat cake" by Marie Antoinette, Queen of France
48: Do you want someone you can’t have?
O.O
49: Have you ever played an instrument?
Duh. I can play the piano, guitar and a little violin. :3
50: What was the worst idea you’ve had in week?
To text someone a really dumb thing. HAHAHAHA!

I feel like changing my blogskin again. YAY. I shall go look.

Skinny aint sexy.

2008-09-03T18:16:00.002+08:00

I NEED MOOD SWING MANAGEMENT! AND LAUGHTER MANAGEMANT!

Anyone willing to help? (:

And training was really fun today. It's amazing how much I grew to love netball. I remember hating sports in primary school because I was some fat ass. I was freaking fat until the middle of sec 1. Amazingly, I maintained my weight from p6 and grew 5cm. Pretty pathetic but still a great achievement. I'm finally healthy but actually, I used to wish I had bulimia so I could lose alot of weight but after realising how bad it was for your throat, I change y mind. Lol. Anyway, skinny aint the new sexy anymore. It's all about curves baby! :D

Yea, I'm much clear headed about something now. I think I know what to do and not tear myself down at the same time. YAY.

Don't know why.

2008-09-01T19:15:00.002+08:00

It was a long day today but it was nice to wake up to see vivien's face. Thanks love! You gave me a great start in the morning. HAHAHAHA! (:

So yea, I did some of my project with jingwen and vivien until 2. Then we went out to meet the guys to play bball. It was fun as usual but there was a little more zest in it today because of something. I shan't elaborate why. We decided to play a failed attempt of block catching. Yijun and me ended up from being the catchers to being the runners. Like wth? Alvin, JiaRong and me were caught by Tanying in one shot because we tried to escape by using the lift. LOL. I got whacked on the head by the ball like dont know how many times but I'm used to it. And some faggot called me a faggot for counting out loud. FUCK HIM. You think you scold me I scared ah. WHATEVER. (x

About something else now ....
The more I think of it, the more I think I'm dumb and ignorant. Like why am I getting myself into such deep shit because of someone. Maybe I'm just too nice and caring until I forgot what's actually most important to me.

Baby, I'm trying.

2008-08-31T11:59:00.002+08:00

I miss China all of a sudden. All those memories I will never forget. The noisiest dinner table I ever sat at was the bomb. I need not say much because the joy is already there. (:

I screwed up my piano exam and there's something wrong with my calve but it's alright. I had a great time playing truth or dare yesterday! Ryan made Jonathan lick his hong kong feet. LIKE WTF. I was the smart one to play truth all the time. :D

And the hellidays are here. Honestly, I prefer going to school than staying at home. How should I make my holidays fufilling? NO IDEA. But it's alright. Just slack all the way.
I think I know how you feel for me and it's something good. (:

Oh happy day!

2008-08-28T21:44:00.004+08:00

Daddy got me my olympic jacket! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! It's the official china one. Thank you. I love it until I can't verbalise the words I wanna say. It's so f-ing chio but the price isn't that chio: $136. /:

DADDY, I LOVE YOU!

5 good things that happened today!

1) The common test was okay. I know I got full marks for my mcq! (:

2) My ca2 results are suprisingly OMFG good. 80% O:

3) My olympic jacket la. :D

4) Vivien finally isn't emo anymore!

5) SOMETHING THAT'S A SECRET. HOHOHOHO.

I love today! (:

BOY! YOU FINALLY ASK ME OUT AFTER WAITING FOR SO LONG! BUT SORRY I COULDNT GO. I WILL MAKE IT UP TO YOU MY DEAR!

Do you?

2008-08-27T21:58:00.005+08:00

I guess I shouldn't text you but I can't help it. Your words bring a smile to my face. I'm really starting to get way too dependant and I hate that feeling.

Thanks to zhidan and huifen for accompanying me for my piano rehearsal today. You girls are great. Josephine, don't worry! You will do well for you piano exam. I believe in you. (:

I'm not really in the best of moods. After reading some one's blog about texting that special someone, I guess I realised some stuff. I like to tell my friends how I feel but sometimes, I wonder if they truly understand. It's not that I don't appreciate you guys being my listening ear and all but I'm just too fucked up to think clearly. Dinner with mummy at sakae did cheer me up a little. Thanks mummy. Honestly, I think I should just continue on with that silly smile on my face and live life. I feel much better pretending actually.

Don't keep me hanging on.

I want you to change.

2008-08-26T18:07:00.003+08:00

Somewhere without any distractions. Just you and me.

CONGRATULATIONS TO THE AHS BASKETBALL BOYS FOR WINNING!

You guys really did us proud! Continue on rocking the basketball world! (:

I was rather disgusted by someone yet again. That person really knows no bounds to what he should talk about. I still regard you as a friend so please, can you try and change? Not everyone is that tolerable as your friends right now. I don't want you to be out casted so just change for goodness sake. I need not repeat myself again. A lot of people have given up on you and decided that you deserve to be pariah-ed but honestly, I believe in the fact that I should forgive and forget. However, I'm disappointed you took advantage of that privilege. All I have to say now is that I'm giving you another chance. It's up to you to decide if our friendship truly matters to you.

And one more thing, I'm not the kind of person to wear my heart on my sleeve. Sometimes, I rather keep things a secret and bottle up my feelings than showing my feelings. I don't like to be seen as weak. I don't like to be seen as vulnerable. SO PLEASE CAN YOU RESPECT THE FACT THAT I DON'T LIKE TO TELL YOU THINGS BECAUSE YOU'RE A FUCKING BIG MOUTH AND BECAUSE OF WHO I AM. All that trustworthy crap is bullshit. If you were trustworthy, I would have regarded you as a true friend already but I now conclude that I can't regard you as one until you change.

Don't make me believe in this: SEASONS CHANGE BUT PEOPLE DON'T.

There's no neccessity for me to be cynical about you and the rest of the world. Don't taint my proper judgement.

My ankle T.T

2008-08-25T19:49:00.004+08:00

You shine brighter than anyone.

Today was hilarious. It rained and rained and rained. The rain caused me and yijun to fall during basketball again. DANG. Luckily, I didn't fall on my butt like yijun. HAHAHAHA! Yunwei! You should have fallen then I can get my free drink! My ankle hurts like shit now. LIKE WTF! Alvin is damn hilarious. He's always giving people little nicknames. =.=

Vivien and Zhidan came to my house today. We talked about loads and loads of things. Content is secret. (:

By the way, tanying, cheer up okay! Your real friends are here for you! <3

Happy Birthday, Yijun!

2008-08-22T20:32:00.003+08:00

I love this picture. All the TALL TALL girlfriends. I just realised I'm the shortest among the 3 of us! I'm only 1.68m! D:

Training was alright but didnt really do much as it was raining cats and dogs! However, I have having a really good time laughing at someone. Shan't elaborate who because I was more like bitching about that person. SO HILARIOUS. Vivien & Tanying, the horoscope thing was damn zhun la! AMAZING.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIJUN!

15 already. Work hard and play hard. Don't so busy all the time! I expect a present next year hor! (:

Stupid bigmouths.

2008-08-20T18:22:00.004+08:00

Today was dumb especially after school. I dont really want to elaborate in case some TEACHERS read my blog. Anyway, thank you to those kaypohs who spoiled the whole thing. We're about to settle the problem and you had to cause everyone to runaway. You wasted everyone's time and effort. Next time, if this happens again, let's switch roles and you see how it feels like to have to run. You know how to say only.

NATO = NO ACTION TALK ONLY.

And thanks for getting my friends in trouble, you killjoy. Everyone greatly "appreciates" your help.

Yea, And the vietnamese students came today. They are extremely fun to talk to! Hoang and Quang were trying to learn how to speak chinese and malay. Pity I didn't take any photos of them as they are damn cute! Vivien, I shall not tell your story here. HILARIOUS SIA!

I'm suddenly into bolding my words. Nice. (:

Yaoming. :O

2008-08-18T23:31:00.004+08:00

Tian ah, my mood is like one giant swing. Up Down Up Down. LOL.

Today was okay i guessed. Didnt go tyby because mummy didnt allow so I went to have pastamania with zhidan. It's always so fun talking to her about loads and loads of things. Content secret.

And pe was fun. My 2.4 timing is bullshit la. Only 10.23min. 23 seconds to 9 min! I really suck. After mr tong released my horrible 2.4 timing, I went to play basketball. Poor khairui sprained his ankle and sorry Alvin for jabbing you in the eye. I dont want to play with sec3 guys already because they are so damn tall until I always cant get the rebound early enough. So dumb. Alvin was talking alot of nonsense like how he was yaoming then teach me how to catch rebound yaoming style. Vivien and me were amazed by how a big fat chicken could be so crap! :O

Zhaoliang's three pointers are really sweet i tell you. It's like it goes in silently. That means his aiming is really pro. I cant even shoot a proper normal two pointer. T.T

What is love? I wish to know.

Nonsense

2008-08-17T21:45:00.002+08:00

Bored so I did a quiz while bloghopping. (:

1. Spell your name without an A
Vlerie
2. Are you single?
Obviously
3. What's your favorite number?
13
4. What's your favorite color[s]?
Green, Black, Purple. (:
5. Least favorite color?
Nope
6. What are you listening to?
Three Days Grace. <3
7. Are you happy with your life right now?
Can say so, with all the love from my friends. how not to be happy?
8. What was/is your favorite subject in school?
English & Lit
9. Do you shop at abercombie?
There isnt an Abercrombie store in singapore. -.-
10. Where do you wish you were right now?
In an island paradise.
11. What should you be doing right now?
Watching news with mum.
12. Do you have a crush on anyone?
Yea, :S

THE CANS:
13. Can you blow a bubble?
Of course.
14. Can you touch your toes?
Of course, since i lost my fat stomach in p5.

THE DIDS:
15. Did you ever want to be a doctor?
Who doesnt?
16. Do you like roller coasters?
DUH! (:
17. Do you want to be a firefighter?
I'm afraid of heat leh.
18. When was the last time you bought a clothing item?
Not sure.
19. What was the last thing you drank?
Water.

THE WHOS:
20. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Suhui. <3
21. Who was the last person to text you?
Genevieve <3

Other Stuff
22. What plans do you have for tonight?
Pray.
23. Do you hate liars?
I'll be a hypocrite if I said if I did. I lie at times too.
24. Do you prefer "sensitive boys"or "tough guys"?
Not sure. I want my own little unique boy.
25 . Do you prefer blonde or darkhaired boys?
Anything la, just must be hot. (:
26. What have you done in your past that you regret?
Secret and it pains me to think of it.
27. Do you have a guy best friend?
Can say so. (:
28. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Lawyer.
29. Have you ever kissed two people in one night?
My mummy and daddy on the cheek. (:
30. Did you ever have your heartbroken?
Many many times not just by boys but by my friends too.
31. Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
Yes.
32. How are things between you and your parents?
Brilliant. (:
33. Do you like your life?
100% yes.
34. What is your fave food?
Sushi and Ice cream
35. What is your favorite love movie?
A Walk to Remember. I cried like shit.
36. Who do u know always has your back?
My Girlfriends. <3
37. Do you forgive or forget?
Forgive. I dont forget.
38. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
Errr girls i guess. I trust girls more. LOL.
39. Has anyone close passed away?
Rest in peace, ah gong. I miss you.
40. Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
Yes, I'm thinking of him right now. BLEAH.
41. What color is your eyes?
Pure black.
42. Have you ever had a good feeling about something and it turned out you were right?
ManyMany
43. Do you ever wish you were famous?
YES! :D
44. Do you ever wish you were a boy?
I prefer to be feminine
45. Do you ever hear a song that got stuck in your head?
Yes, I have very good sound memory. As in really good.

Sometimes, what we chase after isn't what we truly want.

2008-08-17T12:49:00.003+08:00

My blog has been dead this past few days but I don't really care now. Sighs.

I have been feeling rather f-ed up this past few days. Don't know if it's just because it's being raining non stop or it's the matter of the heart. I guessed I tried to control what was supposed to be for fate to decide. I want to take the lead but I know I shouldn't. Maybe, you're waiting for me to start but I decided for once I take the backseat. But I did some thought and this came into my mind. "Maybe sometimes what you chase after isn't what you truly want."

What do I want. I have no clue.
I rely on your affection too much till I'm numb to all others now.

SUNBURNT

2008-08-15T20:55:00.003+08:00

I just keep running from you. Do something before I lose my way.

I GOT SUNBURNT! The moment I stepped home, Mommy was like, "VAL! WHY YOU SO BLACK!" with the flabbergasted expression. I'm super depressed right now because I don't want to be more tanned! T.T

Playing before training was fun. We did stuff that was pretty dumb. THE DARE THAT VIVIEN DID WAS HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! That person freaked out and so did I. =.= Poor tanying had to do the same dare thrice or was it four times? HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO!

My head and heart is seriously in a mess now. What's up with me!? I'm really thinking too much. Things were going so smoothly until today. Other factors are making me even more frustrated but what am I to do.

When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.

2008-08-14T20:54:00.004+08:00

I have no life this past few days. I havent really been going out with my friends except for monday. Two major tests in two days. I can imagine what will it be like in sec3. EVEN WORSE. ):
Tyby was okay but ice and water before tyby was great! I had a fun time being caught like nobody's business. I guess I really suck at hiding. HAHAHAHAHA! Anyway, this whole week is terrible minus monday. WHEN WILL I FINALLY GET MY LIFE BACK?

A really nice word of encouragement today morning from someone really motivated me to do well. I hope you did well for your test too. Thanks. I greatly appreciated that sms. (:

Thanks for being my listening ear and sending me those sweet smses when i least expect it. You truly know how to make my day with those little "insignificant" things. Y

<3s

2008-08-11T20:10:00.002+08:00

It was a fun day! :D

Had a basketball session with vivien, tanying, jingwen, yijun, leehao, alvin and hanliang. YAY. It was super hilarious because we were calling each other stupid names like yao ming, koby bryant(is this how you spell it?), tao li, chicken, mouse, hello kitty and some more crap. HAHAHAHA! I went to meet everyone at white sands first but then I realised yijun's house was just beside the freaking bball court. AHHHHHHHHH! Sorry, make you waste your ez link card money. :3

Then, we started playing and it was pretty awkward as we didnt really know each other. Tanying can really split damn well la! So after playing for an hour, we forced yijun, alvin and hanliang to treat us to drinks. LALALALALA~

IRRITANT OF THE DAY: Some fucking irritating malay gangsters just hogged the whole bball court to play FOOTBALL and we were like playing in a danger zone!
Those malays were damn guailan can. They were damn annoying and pratically kicking their ball around so recklessly. Then, their ball hit jingwen's thigh. Like wth. Hit my friend. Luckily, I didnt go kbkp them. Yijun and his friend wanted to go whack them but we tried to ignore those asses. =.=

Afterwards, alvin and hanliang went home so being super boliao, we played ice and water. I got kinda bored in the end so yijun and me started to play on the see saw. I freaked the hell out of him when I started bouncing crazily when his feet were off the ground. Then at one moment, I was going bollywood style with leehao and vivien at the faux helicopter. I was trying to catch them and they kept eluding me. ):

Thanks to tanying for providing me with the super nice green tea and chips! <3>Thanks to the rest for making it suck a great day! (:

But now i'm suffering from a back ache. Too many rebounds. (:
~~You really are not what others say about you. I think you rock despite the fact that you have a bad temper. Maybe it was just poor judgement from me. You are amazing to talk to and be with.~~

ZOOM!

2008-08-11T12:51:00.002+08:00

I found this on shayting's blog!
I'm bored so i shall do it. (:

ANGER

1) Are you currently mad at someone?
- yes. that asshole. zhidan should know who.

2) Which of your family members has the worst temper?
- my mummy

3) Have you ever thrown something at anyone?
- my brother

4) Does your face turn red when you're angry?
- i'm too black to see me turn red. (:

5) When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell?
- STARE LA! Save my voice

EXCITEMENT

1) Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you?
-yeap! 1j07!

2) Are you easily excited?
- NOT IN A SICK WAY, yes.

3) What event is coming up that you're most excited about?
- basketball with viv, tanying, yijun and friends later?

4) If you won a million dollars, what would be your first thought?
- charity and a nice nice laptop for myself.

5) If you could have anything right now what would it be?
- time machine. :D

LOVE

1) Do you love someone?
- yes. (:

2) Do you have a bf/gf?
- no. havent found the right guy.

3) Is it better to have loved and lost than never loved at all?
- to have loved & lost. but i havent lost. (:

4) Do you believe in love at first sight?
- no way.

5) Would you tattoo your lovers name on your body?
- ewwwww, no. i like tattoos but never tattoo my lovers name. D:

Q&A

Q: How many beds did you lay in today?
- ONE LA

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
- Black

Q: Name one thing that you do everyday?
- Sms, shit, sleep, eat, talk

Q: How much cash do you have on you right now?
- $9 =.=

Q: Is Tom on your Top friends list?
- I know no one by the name of Tom.

Q: Look to your left. What's there?
- My cupboard full of books. (:

Q: What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
- ERRRRRRRR? Mummy's red shirt for NDP.

Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
- My blog lor.

Q: Do you have plants in your room?
- Yes.

Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
- my neck. LOL.

Q: What city was your last taxi cab ride in?
- Singapore <3

Q: Do you own a picture phone?
- WHO DOESNT

Q: Recent time you were really upset?
- Last fri. ):

LAST

1) Person you saw?
- my brother.

2) Person that said they loved you.
- MANY MANY! :D

3) Movie watched in cinema?
- 钱不够用TWO

4) Song you listened to?
- Decoy by Paramore. (:

5) Person you talked on the phone with?
- Vivien <3

6) Person you texted to?
- Yijun :D

TODAY

1) What are you doing right now?
- Typing this crap

2) What are you doing tonight?
- Errrr, eat my dinner.

3) What are you going to eat?
- Food

4) Did you accomplish anything today?
- Yes, i managed to not sms more than 2o. (:

5) What shoes are you wearing?
- AIR

TOMORROW

1) Is?
- 1 more day to BRINJAL's birthday!

2) My plans are?
- Endure trng and study!

3) Are you going to laugh?
- I laugh all the time. =.=

4) Any TV show you watch coming on?
- NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. D:

5) Do you know what you will eat?
- probably ice cream.

DONE! Gah! Going to play basketball later. Yijun is sure going to trash me yet again. ):

Walking on sunshine!

2008-08-10T17:48:00.002+08:00

I have a gazillion tags to reply so here I go! (:

Okay I'm scared of the numbers of tags I have!

ONGHUIFEN :D: Sorry! Hahas.
myw: LAME.
myw: =.=
yuquan: It's best dressed. Lol. And thnks.
amanda`ng: hey.
' NONO ♥: Yeap (: Thnks!
FENGJING(:: LOL. AH NANA!
zhidan: No what.
zhidan: Lol.
zhidan: Relax, I got my w980 now. (:
zhidan: Lol
FENGJING(:: Good idea!
JOJO :D:I know. Nvm, i got a new phone now and I'll protect it with my life. :D
JOJO :D: Cheer up! I spoil things all the time while you lose things all the time. Fair fair. LOL.
' NONO ♥: Linked. (:
' NONO ♥: Hahas. Thnks!
ONGHUIFEN :D: I cant wait to get them yo!
TANYING: Np!
JOJO :D: DO IT!
JOJO :D: Smsed liao.
JOJO :D: (:
jia-en: YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
TANYING: Super hilarious can! HAHAHHAHA!
TANYING: LOL
myw: NO! =.=
myw: Dont you dare.
myw: YOU. .____________.
TANYING: YA! SCARY LOR!
vivien: RELAX!
vivien: RELAX!
Sheng Hui: Okays! (:
' NONO ♥: Np! (: Thnks btw! <3
jia-en: THNKS LOVE! (:
huizhen: yeap!
huizhen: thnks! (:
zhidan: HAHAHA! TOO BAD LOR! (: and nvm la. another day.
lynette: I'm not!
lynette: :D
shelton: WADEVA
shelton: =.=
Sheng Hui: I NO BALL LOR
' NONO ♥: WE'RE ALL CRAZY! LETS PLAY ICE AND WATER AGAIN! (:
FENGJING(: Really? WOW.
TANYING: LOL. okayokay.
ONGHUIFEN :D: What links?
ONGHUIFEN :D: okay..............
amandape!: I love ya too! Thnks! You too!
zhidan: Yes, dandan. I know you're smart. (:

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I'm done. I love my weekends and I love tmr. (:

Numb, completely

2008-08-07T00:41:00.003+08:00

It's nearly one in the morning and I'm not done with my work. God bless.

And I need time away from you. I need to clear my thoughts. I don't want to stay this way but I can't help so. Too bad for me then. I tried to show my disappointment but my emotions just bottle up. I guess I have become numb to your actions. As a friend, you really let me down.

Disappointment,

2008-08-05T20:25:00.002+08:00

For A Pessimist, I'm Pretty Optimistic by Paramore
Just talk yourself up
And tear yourself down
You've hit your one wall
Now find a way around
Well what's the problem?
You've got a lot of nerve

So what did you think I would say?
No you can't run away, no you can't run away
So what did you think I would say?
No you can't run away, no you can't run away

You wouldn'tI never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away
You threw it away

I'm not so naive
My sorry eyes can see
The way you fight shy
Of almost everything
Well, if you give up
You'll get what you deserve

So what did you think I would say?
No you can't run away, no you can't run away
So what did you think I would say?
No you can't run away, no you can't run away

You wouldn'tI never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away
You threw it away

You were finished long before
We had even seen the start
Why don't you stand up, be a man about it?
Fight with your bare hands about it now

I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay well did you
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away
I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away

Gah, you made me so disappointed. You were such an ass. It was in the past, I know but I can't believe you were who you were last time. It's despicable and you, the way you behave now, is horrendous too. You have no disregard. I can't think that why you still try holding on to such silly things. Don't you think it's unfair? You are a jerk. Honestly, you are.

However, after telling it to my dear netballers, I want to not look at through tinted glass. I will try my best. I will try not to judge you by what others say. It's all up to me now. ):

Btw, thank you vivien, tanying and amanda for talking to me. You guys made me think much more clearly. Thanks, i love you guys. <3

Basketball,

2008-08-04T17:17:00.003+08:00

HAHAHA! A zilian picture from me once in a while is nice eh. I took it in malacca. (:

Today was a great day. I felt a sense of achievement somehow cause I finally trashed zhaoliang at basketball! YAY! Yijun and Alvin were damn pro and I just stood there getting rebounds. They shot three pointers and I shoot from under the net. I never offer and I stoned. There's something wrong with my basketball skills from not playing for a week. LOL. However still, THANK YOU YIJUN AND ALVIN for letting a super noob me join your team. At least, I shot in 2/3 out of 11 goals? :D

Engish was shitass again. ACC was great. I carved a rabbit! RABBIT REPELLENT! My girlfriends should know la. I feel like studying all of a sudden. No! I shall look for a new blogskin. ...

People from 2A tell me what you think of this okay? (:

W980!

2008-08-03T16:36:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was amazing i tell. I love 2.4 km runs yo! The must suprising thing is that I got first among the sec2 girls. I'm proud with myself. It's the first time I pushed myself so hard to get something that I thought was out of my reach. I'm happy! I improved by 17 positions! YAY! I shall continue to push myself and show that netball rocks! (:

After the 2.4km, I went for mac for breakfast with zhidan, huifen, vivien and tanying! We talked about lots of stuff and we were trying to reenact the food tasting section on some taiwanese variety show. Super hilarious. Later, we went cycling with leehao and leonjin and we can say that we were zihigh? Huifen and me were the slow and steady kind but with me and tanying we were like a bullet train sia. SUPER FAST. Afterwards, we went ws for lunch and I met daddy to go buy my new phone. I BOUGHT THE W980. WOOHOO! Thank you daddy!

My pretty phone. I want to go bling bling it with crystals. Anyone got any idea where to buy them? (:

Btw, vivien, dont brood over that matter okay? Forget about that person if he doesn't treat you well. We love you. SMILE! :D

Lala, elmo's world!

2008-08-01T21:35:00.003+08:00

I became a part inside a world filled with angry people.

I found a boy who had a dream of making everyone smile.

He was sunshine, I fell over.

My feet like bricks underwater.

Now I know how I truly feel, I need oxygen.

Today was a funny day! Everyone was so damn zihigh. First, some of the sec2 netballers played hide and seek before training! It was damn hilarious! Sheena and debby went hiding at some unknown place, giving Serene and me a super hard time finding them. Luckily, Sheena got impatient and came out so I chased her from the parade square until the NCC room. LOL. Super embarrassing because all the NCC boys were there. I bet they thought I was crazy. ALL I KNOW IS THAT I HAD FUN! (:

Secondly, while I was sitting outside the general office slacking before netball, Sean suddenly came out to me and shouted PATRICK IN THE HOUSE. WHAT THE HELL? It was super random but it cracked me up again. =.=

Thirdly, I had so much fun suaning Serene and Zhaoliang with Viv, Tanying and Deb. HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO! Aiyo zhaolaing, SERENE WORH. Aiyo serene, ZHAOLIANG WORH, :D

Lastly, someone was a total sunshine and made my day. I need not mention that person's name. Those who know, yea, that person made me happy with that retarded smile. (:

By the way, thank you tanying and viv for talking to me about loads of things! You made my situation so much more easier!

[Added at 10.25pm]

Girl, I read through your blog and I dont know if you're making the wrong choice. I understand how your parents may be overpowering and controlling but I hope you think through clearly. Reflect, don't add him and your family into the picture. Are you truly happy this way? It may seem so but when you think through, do tears come? Please think through. I truly care for you and I don't want to see you get hurt again. The first cut may be the deepest but the second will only elevate the pain. Please ... ):

Stop it.

2008-07-31T21:04:00.002+08:00

Mom, I love you but can you stop throwing your temper at me whenever you please? I've got feelings! I may seem indifferent but I'm crying on the inside. Please stop it. I had enough. I may be your daughter but please show me some respect too. I'm not here in this world just for you.

I'm a mess.

2008-07-30T21:49:00.004+08:00

This is whay happens to me when things go wrong. I shatter up and become a mess. The walls I built come crashing down, the bridges I built all burn down. I still try holding on to silly things. I never learn. I'm the new face of failure, prettier and younger but not any better off.

Let's do the pinky wave!

2008-07-29T20:36:00.004+08:00

Today was a great day I guess. I woke up with a terrible headache that I couldnt even open my eyes! However, my dear originals were there to wake me up with their dumb jokes. I hate art! I got suan like shit by zhidan and huifen! You guys actually did kind of annoy me but since you two are suaning machines, I decided to forget about. Hahas. (x

I had league training after school. It was really enriching in a way. Thank you elize and kellyanne for teaching me a lot today! I will try to do my best and improve! Group A, let's strive for the best! We can do it! (:

Assembly was cool. We had those south pacific people performing for us. The music and the drum beats were OMGOSH amazing. Val is exaggerating la but seriously, you will definitely be drawn into the rhythem and start tapping your feet or something. Yea, I think yijun did something really funny today! He was on the phone when he said hi to me so he just wiggled his pinky and smiled. So dumb! I hereby call it a pinky wave. DAMN HILARIOUS. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I'm high. Tanying also told me about her weird dream. LMAO, can? ;D

Somebody run with me please? My legs are itching. ):

Random yet again.

2008-07-28T19:51:00.002+08:00

I saw this super cool thing on zhidan's blog!

1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal.
Here it goes.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
Stop and stare by one republic. Errrr.

2. How would you describe yourself?
Curbside prophet by Jason Mraz. =.= I prophesize on the curb. WOW.

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
Never Let This Go by Paramore. Hmmm ... The relentless chasing and the determination. Not bad. Like jojo said a guy with a passion is hawt. (:

4. How do you feel today?
Hum Hallelujah by Fall Out Boy. Quite okay la.

5. What is your life's purpose?
Homeless by Leona Lewis. EEEEEEEEEEEEE. I dont want to be homeless. My house is beautiful!

6. What is your motto?
Summer Love by Justin Timberlake. Yes! :D

7. What do your friends think of you?
Chop Me Up by Justin Timberlake. They think I'm so lame until they want to chop me up? ):

8. What do you think of your parents?
Delayed Devotion by Duffy. =.= That's all I can say.

9. What do you think about very often?
Misery Business(live) by Paramore. I dont think much bout fake people.

10. What is 2 + 2?
重来 by 张韶涵. REALLY STOOOOOPID SIA.

11. What do you think of your best friend?
我不会唱歌 by 罗志祥. Yes, we always sing out of tune together!

12. What do you think of the person you like?
We Are Broken by Paramore. Very true, my dear. We really live like this. We need each other but we just cant see.

13. What is your life story?
American Boy by Estelle. OMG. I'm going to marry some ultra hot american boy. =.=

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
My Love by Justin Timberlake. I dont want to be him. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Don't You Know Who I Think I Am? by Fall Out Boy. My mind ain't that complex. All I think is What the hell, I need to run.

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Killa by Cherish. WOOOOOOOOOOOO! I'm going to breakdance at my wedding.

17. What will they play at your funeral?
I Write Sins not Tragedies by Panic! at the Disco. Nice song! But it's a song bout a wrong marriage. ):

18. What is your hobby/interest?
Sleep All Day by Jason Mraz. EH! SO TRUE SIA!

19. What is your biggest fear?
Forgotten by Linkin Park. YA! I DONT WANT PPL TO FORGET ME!

20. What is your biggest secret?
The First Time I Ever Saw Your Face by Leona Lewis. It really isnt a secret leh.

21. What do you think of your friends?
Absolutely Zero by Jason Mraz. ): NO! THEY ARE ABSOLUTELY INFINITY!

22. What will you post this as?
头号甜心 by 张韶涵. Number one sweetness? LAME.

Some are true, some are diao. LOL.

Spare phone anyone? (:

2008-07-27T16:37:00.004+08:00

ANYONE HAS A SPARE PHONE? CAN LEND ME FOR 3 MONTHS? (:

It was an okay weekend. Went to junction8 with cousins yesterday and being a super nice person, I treated them to mos burger. I wanted to take loads of photos but thnks to the idiot who stole my phone. na da. ):

Today is okay as well. I just had tuition and earlier in the morning I went to hello! shop to get my replacement sim card. I waited for like 1 hour just to get my queue number. =.= Now, I'm slacking and I'm going to pasir ris park with my bro and mum later to cycle. YAY! Suhui! I'm so going to be a paparazzi there. (:

~~This heart it beats, beats for only you. My heart is yours.~~

SCREW THAT LITTLE FUCKER

2008-07-25T23:37:00.002+08:00

SOME LITTLE FUCKER STOLE MY PHONE AT TM. SCREW HIM. I WISH HIM/HER A TERRIBLE DEATH FOR DISPLAYING SUCH DISHONESTY. DIE YOU ASS. IF I KNEW WHO YOU ARE, I WOULD HAVE STUFF A ROTTEN BANANA AND SNIP YOUR BALLS/TITS. GO KILL YOURSELF. ALL MY PHOTOS, ALL MY CONTACTS, ALL MY SONGS, ALL MY THEMES, ALL MY EVERYTHING. THANKS TO YOU, A PART OF ME IS GONE. FUCK.

Bad day! Good day! Good thing was cip but some little fucker stoled my phone so all my photos are gone. Bad thing, MY PHONE IS GONE. Dang. SCREW IT LA!

Cip was fun! I got to interact with old people and they are extremely nice. 2A was super zi high so yea, it was worth it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TANYING BTW!

here and gone. yes and no. now and forever. that's how we live, love.

Reciprocate

2008-07-24T22:04:00.003+08:00

I'm slacking while I'm studying for geog tmr! (x

I went for the launch of the National Weather Study Project today and it was fun fun fun! The reception was hilarious. Shelton ate like 19 meatballs and my whole group was like koping meatballs from the buffet table. DAMN FUNNY LA! I ate 8 fruit tarts and I feel like I should have eaten more!

I went home with ZhaoLiang. We talked about loads of stuff especially about that. Only Zhaoliang and Yunwei should know what it is. I reached home at 7 then had dinner and started doing my survey. Sian. Then shenghui was irritating me with his spastic cute face on his webcam! SHENGHUI DIDI IS DUMB! Lol. Now i'm doing geog and I'm fainting. BLEAH.
Get out of my head. You're consuming my thoughts.

Racial harmony day!

2008-07-23T22:19:00.010+08:00

Today was racial harmony day! It was fun times one billion! (:

I was damn freaking high during the concert and I won best dressed female in lower secondary! YAY! I got a $20 capital land voucher! I'm definitely going to spend it on food! The sing-a-long was zi high. 2A was the craziest class yet again! CHAN MALI CHAN HUIHUI! CHAN MALI CHAN HUIHUI! Huihui became so emo after we sang that song. SORRY HUIHUI! 2A loves you! WAKAKAKAKAS!

And Mr Wee, our dearest form teacher, won best dressed male teacher! HIGH FIVE! YAY! Carrot monk will of course love a purple brinjal like you. HEHE.

Pictures of us, having a blast. (:

Quit staring do some talking. I'm sick and tired of picking up hints. And you, your heart is being wasted on me. So while it's still not too late, do something about your emotions. It's way too obvious for my taste.

Tagback first.

2008-07-23T18:06:00.003+08:00

Tagbacks(:
zhidan: Lala, who are you? I know! It's huifen's partner in crime! (:
shelton: yea lor.
shelton: -.-
shelton: -.-
shelton: -.-
shelton: -.-
shelton: -.-
ROCHELLE: Hey! You spelt my name wrongly btw. LOL.
jia-en: YO! And it's a nice movie.
ONGHUIFEN :D: DO I KNOW YOU. (:
ONGHUIFEN :D: DO I KNOW YOU. (:
michelle(: I'm not looking
zhidan: No more showing le. SO CANNOT WATCH! HOHO
FENGJING(: It's nice leh! And yea! I will miss everyone.
yingzhen: Hey. ;D
jessica xD: Hello mei! I told you right?
JOJO :D: DAMN NICE RIGHT?
[skip the next ten tags][gen, sorry! skipped yours too!]
ZhEkAi: Over le. So heck care bout it. (:
shelton: Nvm. (:
shelton: OKAYYYY ...
yuanshen: thnks. (:
ALECIA: Haha! Missed ya too. Okay sure!
.rEbEcCa.: Yeap! And you have me too!
zhidan: VAL IS SMILING!
zhidan: YAY!
vivien: YOOOOOOOOOOO! okayokay!
vivien: ;D
pris: AHHHHHHHHHH!
pris: HELLO MONSTER! (:
suhui: HEHEHEHEHEHEHE! (:
.rEbEcCa.: MUAHAHAHA! I'M EVIL!
zhidan: That's the best song lor. And yea, happy val is back!
myw: DIAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
myw: No way, man. I rock more.
vivien: YEA! SEAFOOD IS LOVED!
lynette: Hey! 21 August! (:
TANYING: HEY!
TANYING: LOL

That's a lot of tags. I shall post about my racial harmony day later because all my photos are stuck in my phone and it's charging. .__________________.

We're stuck.

2008-07-22T20:54:00.002+08:00

My legs feel like they're torn apart so does my heart.

Today was a fun day! I loved the games session! I finally learnt how to play zero point! Skipping and limbo were one of my many favourite games of the day! Everyone was like watching the corrupters skipping like some freaks. I bet people must have thought we're crazy but whatever! More importantly I had fun! (:

Csj just told the school in the morning that any girl caught with their skirt above their knees will be given a green form on the spot. DIAO. Like I care. I like my '3cm above knee' skirt. Rules are meant to be broken anyway. Short skirts and long fringes are nice. Floor sweeping skirts are a big nono.

Training was okay. Just tired. I shall go mug then. I have so many tests coming my way. ):
I see you. You see me. And we're stuck. It's going to get awkward if things continue on this way.

Mustafaaaaaaa,

2008-07-21T20:58:00.003+08:00

Today started with a super boring talk by dr boon. Like whatever? Then yijun and some girl gave some report on their cca achievements. Yijun was talking in like one tone and I nearly fell asleep. Senior, talk more lively leh! People fall asleep during assembly!

Lessons lessons lessons. Pe was the best. I had my shuttle run and it wasnt bad actually. 11.96s I improved 2s ? All the guys were sliding all over the place and I want to mince Yunwei up for saying something wrong when I was running. Shouldnt elaborate. HOHOHOHOHO! Actually, I'm okay about it but if ** comes and ask me about it or something spreads, you're doomed. Joking only! (:

I went to mustafa after school to buy bangles and I hate the security there. So damn bloody rude. Zhidan was so pissed and she wanted to strangle that guy. Freak him la. However, I realised the stuff there is dirt cheap! We bought 200 plus bangles and bindis for $35. WTH? I want to buy my favourite indian movies. Don't laugh at me! I admit I like indian movies. They're good. :D

I have a ton of work to do. NO MORE PROCRASTINATING VAL! Do your work!

You are such an angel, don't ask me to elaborate why. I dont even know why I feel so. You made my day yet again. (:

Half a century.

2008-07-20T12:07:00.003+08:00

MY 50TH POST! (:

It was a normal weekend. Yesterday, I went to Orchard Hotel to celbrate my ah gong's birthday and the food was fantastic. However, I didnt take many pictures. ):

Tuition later, sian but I still have suhui and jo so it's all right! Congrats suhui! I wish you all the best. Remember your girlfriend will always be here for you no matter what. <3

And thanks btw to all those who cheered me up during this super emotional week of mine. The old spastic val is back so (:

We're not just teammates, It's more like family. <3

I may think you're amazing but I realised crying over you has no point at all. I'm more about myself now.

These friends are forever.

2008-07-17T21:47:00.004+08:00

My mood has improved loads. Despite the little odds and ends, my friends surely know how to make my day rock. I love you people. Especially the corrupters. You guys rocks. Reminiscing about our China trip brings tears to my eyes. It's amazing to see how far we have come. We all came from different classes and backgrounds but that didn't stop us from being the best of friends who crap like shit all the time. Keep on crapping! And I'm going to kill Ma Yun Wei for sending me this sms during malay: xoxomyorYseiohadn hadsie growsien.mixes. Like what the hell? But it made me super high and I laughed two minutes. HAHAHAHAHAHA ! And the 砍 brinjal song is hilarious. NICE WORK ZHIDAN! Two post a day. Wow. I really love blogging. (:

We're like these bears. Different yet alike.

Let the cold war begin

2008-07-17T13:38:00.007+08:00

I'm in summer concerto and super sian right now.

I have done some thinking and I don't know if it was right. It just doesn't seem right to conceal my feelings but the words just don't come out as I'm afraid. Luckily, I talked to RebeccaJie, and YunWei last night and they really cheered me up. Thanks guys. And oh ya, Zhidan was a total darling to accompany me to mac yesterday for ice cream! And Vivien is loved for smsing me during assembly to enlighten me even though she was sitting in front of me. Love ya! And Jingwen is doing nonsense beside me. She's been typing 'the' like a gazillion times and she thinks it's therapeutic, damn hilarious. Everyone is like blog surfing right now. So LOL! Okay, I shall go do my air pollution case study. (:
Well, what's your problem? You've got a lot of nerve. I put so much faith in you and you just threw it away.

Flashing lights

2008-07-16T21:20:00.005+08:00

In the limelight, I feel empty. Like I'm falling into a blackhole, dark and never ending. I'm screaming inside. No one hears. Smiling for the cameras, blinded by the flashing lights, I'm just a plain hollow shell living in a world of black and white. I want you to bring back colour into my life but I know you can't. We're a lost cause. Or maybe I'm just destined for bullet-proof lonliness.

A BIG CLEAR UP!

2008-07-16T17:53:00.004+08:00

Okay, I'm here to clean up the mess I just made.

First and foremost, I would like to apologise to zhekai for saying such things. Like I tagged on your blog, the post is actually 99.999999999999%not referring to you. It's referring to other people that you should know who. I know that my temper gets the best of me and I'm pretty impulsive in what I say so I apologise. But, I do hope you can see where you're in the wrong la. So we're cool? Anyway, if you need any help on ....., can ask me. I'm more than willing. (:

And I would like to apologise to suhui too! Sorry, girlfriend! You know your crazy friend says stupid things la. Maybe I shouldn't have gotten between them but I had to do something! And I read through the post, it was errrrrr... angry and rude in a sense? I hope you weren't offended that much. I hope this dumb matter doesn't get between our friendship. All friendships have their ups and downs so I guess this is just God's way of testing the strength of our friendship. And that long long sms I send you is damn cool right! 3 PAGES! (: So yea, sorry and let's continue being the best of friends okay?

VALERIE GOH HAS OFFICIALLY DECIDED TO DELETE THE POST! YAY!

actually, if you ask me to be honest with you, i'm pissed you defended him instead of me. i dont know if i should trust you anymore

Bang bang.

2008-07-14T19:49:00.004+08:00

CONGRATS TO BAND FOR WINNING GOLD WITH DISTINCTION! NICE ONE! (:

I'm crazy over old songs right now. People, I totally recommend "Heart of Glass" by Blondie and "Bang Bang (My Baby Shot Me Down)" by Nancy Sinatra. "Total Eclipse of the Heart" by Bonnie Tyler is good too! I just realised all these songs were produced way before I was born. For example, Bang Bang (My Baby Shot Me Down) was produced in 1966! Like wow?

Today was okay again. School is always damn boring. My napha sucks ballzxzxz.
STANDING BROAD JUMP - 173cm
SIT UPS - 39
SIT AND REACH- 45cm

WHAT THE HELL LA. During the sit ups, I was damn slack so yea, it's okay but my sit and reach! I could stretch like 48 to 50 arnd there when i practised. This really proves to me I'm old. ):

But nehmindnehmind!, my 2.4km run and shuttle run shall do me proud! Duh! My running has always been my forte. HOHOHOHOHO! bhb. .______________. As for my inclined pull up, I have nothing to say yea. All those who know me should know how GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD my arm power is. Lol.

I cant believe it! Mummy is going back to work this wednesday! I dont know if I should be happy or sad! So to cherish my last few afternoons with mummy, we went to eighteen chefs! YAY! (:

Let's just look into opposite directions and continue our dellusions. It's better this way. Our calling will come and we'll see what adventure is in store for the both of us when that moment comes. Till then, let's keep our friendship this way, no less and maybe just a little more. Fate shall take its course once more and lead us to where we truly belong. (:

I love my weekends! (:

2008-07-13T22:46:00.010+08:00

Whoops! I didn't post for 3 days! Sorry if I deprived all you faithful readers! HOHOHOHO!

Friday
It was a super sian day at first. Woke up with a throbbing headache but still I dragged myself to school. Another day of mundane lessons. After school, I didn't go for training and went home because I had to attend a symphony concert. I finally got to doll up for once. I met suhui first to go to josephine's house. Later we went to WS to meet huizhen, zhekai and leslie. After dinner, we took neos! <3>
Later, we mrt-ed to city hall and walked all the way to esplanade. GAH! My feet suffered from terrible blisters. At the esplanade, I went to find zhidan. I TELL YOU THE ESPLANADE'S CONCERT HALL IS SUPER CHIO. I FELT SO AMAZED WHEN I WALK INTO THE EXTRAVEGENT HALL. IT'S SO HIGH AND THE SOUND OF THE INSTRUMENTS WERE BEAUTIFUL. Too bad I didn't take any photos. ):

However, despite how much I loved the music, we decided to leave during the intermission. We went to meet carolyn at marina square and we met Miss Farah and her bf on the way. HOHOHOHOHO! We wanted to watch a movie but all the timings were sucky so we went for coffee and mrt-ed home. Yea, I took alot of zilian photos with my galfriends on the train by the way! (:

HOHOHO! PAISEH! This one was taken at the toilet in the esplanade. (:

Carolyn & me.

Can you see our battle scars from walking? Suhui and me are so proud of them! (:

Reached home. I ate all the leftover dinner. Then slept. /: I'm growing fat.

Saturday
Any normal saturday for me. Guitar lessons, tuition then grandma's house! However, I went to bishan library with rachjie and ryankor. It was fun. We sat at some green corner and crapped. Borrowed many great reads! Later, we played basketball and soon, we got bored so we decided to go zilian. HAHAHAHA !

My favourite pics that I edited! (:

Sunday

The same as usual. Piano lessons, tuition. However, I finally got to watch hancock. LALALALALALA! It was nice lor! FENGJING HOW COME YOU SAY IT'S NOT NICE?! O:

Sian. There's napha tmr. I hope I dont screw my SBJ. The rest no problem. Only SBJ is the prob. =.=

LORD, I PRAY THAT YOU BLESS ME WITH A SUDDEN ABILITY TO JUMP AND THANK YOU FOR MY WONDERFUL WEEKEND. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING! (:

I need to be away from you but you always seem to be there. I try to hide but my heart says no. The word, "confused" doesn't even sum up how I feel. I wish I could just run away. Run away from you and reality,

Hello o levels!

2008-07-09T17:30:00.003+08:00

HOHOHO! I DIDN'T GET INTO VJC! (:

Can I say that I'm happy? Yea, it's like I'm reluctant to let go of the friendships I have forged here in AHS. I remember when it was during orientation camp last year, I was the only one from CHIJ OLN to enter AHS. I had not a single friend. However, within a week or so, I had not only made friends with loads of people already. Even though I hate the school policies, I can't bear to leave behind the culture I have gotten so used to. No matter what, thank you VJC for letting me through to the interview round! That experience really proved to me that I'm good in my studies one way or another. So yea, byebye IP, hello o levels! (:

Lala, today was an okay day. Shant elaborate on bad things. And yeap, it was student council investiture today! Congrats to Marcus Tan for becoming a second year cousellor!
You and me are the oddest pair of friends but yea, it's nice to see your smile after such a long time.

I let you down, sorry.

2008-07-08T18:16:00.003+08:00

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?
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You scored as English/Journalism/Comm

You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Communication, English, Film, Journalism, Literature, or Writing.

It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

HOHOHO ! random quiz. Actually, I personally feel that the results are super accurate because I have considered that major since I was like 9? Dont call me ks hor. (:

And today was a weird day. Yea, loads of drama and attitude from me again. However, the reason I don't want to say why. Shelton, Jingwen and Jo, you guys should know why.

I totally got suaned by ZHIDAN and HUIFEN lor. They watched the strangers already! ):
But nehmindnehmind, let's go watch hancock! (:

I'm so random. I have a long long list of movies to watch especially after my dvd spree.
I feel bad that I didn't even wish you good luck so I'm going to make it up to you, boy.

Around we go,

2008-07-07T21:58:00.004+08:00

Tagbacks(:

ys: linked. (:

zhidan: buy for me one big bathtub first can? :D

zhidan: =.=

.rEbEcCa.: REBECCA SUE WILLIAM, YOU ARE SO LOVED TOO! (:

.rEbEcCa.: okay ...

.rEbEcCa.: you're so missed la. i miss you torturing me with your super cold jokes lor. lol.

.rEbEcCa.: messy i guess, with school and ...

ys: yes, ah boy. i know.

ZANN(:: TYTY! and yeap, i saw it on your blog already! lol

ZANN(:: (:

valerie.: HOW YOU KNOW THAT'S ME? GASPS!

FENGJING(: ._________________. HELLO AH GONG

FENGJING(: AH GONG I HATE YOU. LOL.

FENGJING(: obviously.

FENGJING(: AH GONG I LOVE YOU TOO.

FENGJING(: sure! (:

zhidan: not random. lol.

zhidan. thnks! :D

ONGHUIFEN :D: looks very long lor! lol.

ONGHUIFEN :D: COOK LOR. But then i dont want eat him leh. I prefer sri lankan crabs!

ONGHUIFEN :D: HOHOHOHO! THE ZHIDAN SONG SONG!

JOJO :D: YA LA! i imagined if that happened in singapore. EEEEYER!

zhidan: AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!

zhidan: I DONT WANT WRITE FOR YOU LEH, SUANING MACHINE! (:

pris: YO YO WASSUP! HAHAHAHA !

pris: :D

pris: HEY HIHEHAAAAAA!

.rEbEcCa.: (:

.rEbEcCa.: ME TOO!

Wow, that was quite alot of tags. Went to sentosa, vivo and bugis with josephine today! <3

But then I'm kinda tired already so i shall post bout it tmr! However, before I end this post, let me give show you a nice beautiful picture we took! (:

We're on the skyride & Jo was totally suffering from vertigo. However, I'm so proud so she conquered her fear! Way to go sister! (:

Yea, I wanna be honest right now. The odds are zero so just forget bout it. Don't test me before I shatter you completely.

Sometimes, we're wrong,

2008-07-06T20:06:00.003+08:00

OH! IT IS A GOOD GOOD DAY TODAY! (:

I love my weekends. So relaxing. I can just sit in a corner with a good book and chill. I love today the most! I got to rebond my hair as it was starting to become puffy. Lol. Thank you mummy for spending so much on my hair! Love you!

And oh ya! I wanna watch the strangers! Anyone? It's damn cool. I was already freaked out when I watched the trailer. AH!

SEE THE MAN IN THE MASK STANDING IN A CORNER! EEEEEEEEE! D:

I CAN WAIT FOR TMR! SENTOSA AND VIVO OUTING WITH JO! (:

maybe you are just a phase.

You'll always be a part of me,

2008-07-04T19:41:00.003+08:00

Tagbacks(:
Nick: linked (:
Nick: DUMBDUMB! lol. take care of your ankle btw!
pris: Aloha! (:
shelton: AREN'T YOU HONOURED? (:
shelton: hahas
shelton: it's not lor.
shelton: DUH! you broke my heart. GAHHHHHHHHH! lol.
shelton: ._________.
vivien ;D: after i posted then i realised lor! SORRY MOLESTED TURTLE!
vivien ;D: HOHOHO ! right after this i'm writing it.
TANYING: HEYYYYYYYO! relinked. (:
jessica (:: hahahas. i shall write for you two too!
jessica (:: someone. yea, someone. i'm okay already. and sure! i cheered up already!
zhidan: i'm not! i love you so much lor! you're such a suan-ing machine lor.

It's dedication time! But then i shall post about my day first! Bloody boring day again! Only netball trng was the highlight of the day! The sec 4s came back! WOOHOO! I was damn happy la. I love playing with the seniors! It's more challenging and pushes me to perform at my fullest potential. However, I feel that I still have a lot of areas of improvement especially when it comes to ball grabbing! My fingers are like butter so anyone who wants to practice basic passes, come find me! You practicing with me would be greatly appreciated!

SO HERE COMES THE DEDICATIONS!

Vivien
Molested turtle, hello! I just realised how close we became after such a short period of time! We weren't close at all in the beginning but after our random candy gift exchanging, things sure changed around yea? Lol. Thanks for cheering me up whenever I was emo or troubled over him. And making lessons not so boring by sitting next to me! I especially missed the moments when we sat together during history. We always talked crap and scribbled doodles on huihui's book. And you just told me you got over ____. WOOHOOO! That's wonderful! Quoted from you. HAHAHA ! And yea! You exposed me into the fantastic world of makeup! Nice one! Lol. One last thing before i end this dedication, you know you love me. Dont strangle me. (:

Hui Fen
Hey pork! We came from the same pig sista! I'm the oil, You're the meat. LOL. ALL I HAVE TO SAY IS THAT HOHO PRIVATE LIMITED ROCKS! But stop the cheer about me and yuanshen. However, the barney and spongebob campire song songs are hilarious. And oh ya! Thanks for being so out of the world and making me smile no matter how emo I was! Thanks one more time for making new nicknames for him and all his bags. I can list them here lor. Gay pink bag. Rainbow nike bag. Stupid blue crumpler. And I love the way you always suan me by asking me to bath in sunblock lotion to be fair. Girlfriend! YOU ROCKS LA! ;D

Jing Wen
I dont need to say too much lor. You will always know how much I think you rock and how I always kope your bread! Anyway, you're the best irritant a girl can have and thanks for being horny to make me high when i'm low. LALALALALA ! You're the best! Kiss Kiss Hug Hug! I love you!

Wah! I'm finally done. My fingers are broken. HOHOHOHO.
The silence is killing me. Why are we both so shy?

Quit playing games

2008-07-03T20:59:00.002+08:00

I realised I post everyday. LOL. and yea, I'm using daddy's laptop. HOHOHOHOHOHOHO.

Today was a boring day. Didnt do much. Schooled (BLAH), went WS, went home, took a nice long nap, tuitioned. So boring. However, I had a fun time deesiaoing Zhao Liang about someone today. ZHAOLIANG DONT DENY IT HOR! I'VE VERY GOOD INSTINCTS DE! (:

And yeap, after school, went to white sands with corrupters and suhui bestie! Had kimchi soup and rice! Very nice but definitely not comparable to the brilliant korean steamboat I had in chinatown. Shelton was damn errr .... turned on? I shant say why because i have to protect his reputation. However, I'm kinda grossed out? YES! Shelton, too much info will freak me out and you need a girlfriend who can take that kind of info man! Your jie is a little pure. HAHAHA! What the heck am I talking bout?

Spacing out is the new loved. I kept spacing out today and I think I definitely freaked some people out. HOHOHO!
I need to be truthful to myself and stop playing with his heart.

Give me courage, Give me strength.

2008-07-02T21:15:00.002+08:00

The pretty neos i took today with some of my beloved corrupters! Shelton, Zhidan & Jo baby, you guys made my day. ONGHUIFEN & ONGJINGWEN! i wished you two ongs went! i'm missing my ongs yea? XD

I really need to find courage within myself. It's like I always let chances pass me by. I'm too afraid. Afraid of failure, of rejection, of disappointment and of him. I cant seem face the music. Father above, please give me strength to fight my fears. I need you to guide me. I have no clue what I'm doing anymore. And you boy, you're giving me a headache. Going around in circles, not going straight to the point. Spare a thought for my feelings please. I have already enough load on my shoulders thanks to school. Even though you are doing it subconsciously, I can feel the pressure already so dont mess up what's left of me.

Sometimes, I wished I could photoshop all of my memories. Make them happy, make them all heart warming. I have gone for too long, behaving like I'm not alive. So I'm going to start over tonight, beginning with him. Be brave! Think positive! Erase that facade I put on when I'm sad inside. There's so many more possibilities for me! And all those who could see how I was truly feeling, thanks for talking to me. Your words and encouragement really made my day! (:

I hate/love texting!

2008-07-01T20:50:00.003+08:00

i must abstain from smsing
i must abstain from smsing
i must abstain from smsing
i must abstain from smsing
i must abstain from smsing

i want to sms! but i cant! my dad will murder me if i bomb AGAIN.

AND OH YA! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, ZHENJU! (:
dont emo so much la, you emo kia. emo somemore i will poke you. lol.
i guess my shyness gets the best of me sometimes. meeting you so many times but not saying a word.

How could I live without you?

2008-06-30T21:36:00.004+08:00

Talking to you was fantastic. But do we really know how each other truly feel? I know i tend to hold back but as long as you know i care, i'm contented. (:

And oh ya! i'm supposed to dedicated a post to zhidan & shelton.

ZHIDAN
heyhey penguin! penguins cant fly yea? dont kill me! hahas. and yeap, i wish you all the best in like every aspect of your life. i really look up to you la! can handle your life so well unlike me! but yeap, dont emo so much. remember, every cloud has a silver lining. every storm will eventually pass. must be like val! so noisy all the time even though sometimes it's my way of hiding my feelings. lol. and dont say i'm biased okay! i love you loads lor. more than him la, girlfriend! (:

SHELTON
yo di! thanks for always being there when i'm having troubles with him and giving me information even though i dont ask for it. lol. you can cheer me up by being horny and talking crap all the time la. you rock la! dont care what other say bout you! to me, you're a great friend. so what if others judge you, they dont know you. believe in youself and be true. and oh ya, she is just a part of your life. she's yesterday. hope you find a better girl! JIAYOU!

Jingwen and Huifen! Your dedications will be on another day okay! (:

& i found this really meaningful passage on the web.
Proverbs 3:5-6, Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding;In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.

quiz!

2008-06-29T20:07:00.002+08:00

bored. found this on suhui's blog with my name in it. awwwwwwww! love ya girlfriend!

Well, put down 12 names of the people you know randomly.
& See how it goes.

1. Suhui
2. Genevieve
3. Rebecca
4. Jingwen
5. Josephine
6. Hui Fen
7. Zhidan
8. Shelton
9. Vivien
10. Yuan Shen
11. Zhao Liang
12. Yun Wei

Then, you answer the questions:

1. Have you ever kissed number 7? Zhi Dan
air kiss only.

2. What is the best memory you have of 9? Vivien
ALL THE TIME! : D

3. When is the next time you're gonna see 4? Jingwen
tmr (:

4. Is number 8 pretty? Shelton
err, he's a guy?

5. What was your first impression of number 10? Yuan Shen
SO TALL!

6. How did you meet 3? Rebecca
CHIJ OLN! 1 JOY!

7. Is 11 your best friend? Zhao Liang
He's my godson. ._________.

8. Have you seen 5 in the last month? Josephine
I see her everyday except for sat.

9. Do you think 2 has a crush on you? Genevieve
She loves me to bits i tell you.

10. When was the last time you saw 12? Yun Wei
Friday

11. Have you ever been to 1's house? Suhui
NO! GAHHHHHHHH! She dont let me go. ):

12. When is the next time you'll see 10? Yuan Shen
tmr, in class.

13. Are you really close to 6? Hui Fen
quite, considering the fact we've known each other for only 6 months.

14. Have you ever been to the movies with 4? Jingwen
YEAP! CJ7!

15. Have you ever gotten in trouble with 2? Genevieve
oh yes! for deesiaoing people until very bad!

16. Would you ever go out with number 7? Zhi Dan
duh! dua chio bu leh! but she's taken. ):

17. What do you and number 3 talk about the most? Rebecca
secret. LALALALALA

18. Do you even know 9? Vivien
of course!

19. Would you give number 3 a hug? Rebecca
I WOULD GIVE A MILLION HUGS TO MY JIE!

20. Are you in love with number 12? Yun Wei
EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! no.

21. Do you know a secret about number 8? Shelton
hehehehehehehe.

22. Describe the relationship between number 9 and number 5. Vivien & Josephine
They like to poke each other.

23. What is the best thing about your friendship with number 1? Suhui
She makes me not so crazy. (:

24. Have you ever danced with number 7? Zhi Dan
YEAP! SHOW AND SHARE!

25. How long have you known number 12? Yun Wei
6 months

26. Have you ever been in a fight with number 8? Shelton
not really fight la. just argue.

27. Would 2 and 4 make a good friend? Jingwen & Genevieve
of course! they are friends already!

28. Has number 1 ever met your mother? Suhui
loads.

29. How did you meet number 6? Hui Fen
2 ANYTHING! :D

30. What would happen if you put 10 and 11 in a room together? Yuan Shen & Zhao Liang
gay sex. lol. jkjk.

31. Do you live close to 7? Zhi Dan
Is Bedok and Pasir Ris close? ._______.

32. What is number 2's favorite food? Genevieve
I DUNNO! sorry bff!

33. Out of your top 12, which one would you say is the funniest?
Josephine. (:

34. Who is the most flirtatious?
NONE! lying through my teeth i guess. (:

35. If you could change one thing about number 10, what would it be? Yuan Shen
Less gay. LOL

36. Say something about number 11. Zhao Liang
Lan Zhen Long

37. Which one lives the farthest away?
no idea.

38. Who is the loudest?
SHELTON (:

39. What kind of car does number 12 have? Yun Wei
If he drove, people's lives are at stake

40. Have you traveled anywhere with number 8? Shelton
No.

41. If you gave number 5 $100 tonight, what would they spend it on? Josephine
She will go buy comics.

& those who sees this must do it :D

DARREN IS LOVED! (:

2008-06-29T12:51:00.003+08:00

GOOD MORNING STARSHINE! THE EARTH SAYS HELLO! (:

okay, that was crap. it's in the afternoon already and the earth cant talk but still willy wonka is loved! lol.

yea, 1 hour more before tuition. GAHHHHHHHHHH! but then it was a fun weekend i guess. celebrated the birthday of my super duper cute adorable handsome sweet lovable ~~boyfriend~~ baby cousin! DARREN BABY, JIEJIE LOVES YOU! hahas. my baby cousin is the sweetest thing on earth. he gave me a big hug when i arrived at waraku and said, "valerie jiejie, i can see your back." .___________. i was wearing something like a tube top but with straps and he was stunned to see my back. LOL. so cute!

we went to waraku, a japanese restaurant in east coast park. (1JAYWALKERS! EAST COAST PARK!) it was nice. ate like a pig again. but didnt take much pics and they are all with rachjie. ):

after my brilliant dinner, went for a walk arnd east coast park. wanted to emo but jessmei didnt allow it! played with my baby cousins at some exercise station. i know i'm lame. and yeap, i waliked until the place where i had my 2.4km run lat year. alot of memories there especially at the bridge. it was a fun day overall and oh ya, jingwen!, it was damn hilarious when you smsed me that you were stuck in your tuition centre. (:
it was fun talking to you. but do we really know how each other feel? and yea, i cant wait for the eoy hols.

but the words just don't come out

2008-06-27T20:00:00.002+08:00

能不能勇敢说爱 - 张韶涵

世界太啰唆能不能够放空失踪
是谁在我的背后说什么好像又没说
一颗心总被你悬在半空中难受
可是你又迟迟不说爱

我没有你我发现自己无法感动
是否当身边的人都变成观众
我该做作
oh you are the sunshine in my life
but i don't really know
需要你的时候感受你的温柔
能不能勇敢说爱

关掉你的眼睛你的鼻和口 say no
如果你也能放下所有请你点点头
我的心只为你一个人跳动心痛
可你还能为我改变什么

没有你我发现自己无法感动
是否当身边的人都变成观众
我该做作
oh you are the sunshine in my life
but i don't really know
需要你的时候感受你的温柔
能不能勇敢说爱

也许到最后
你还是要走

没有你我发现自己无法感动
是否当身边的人都变成观众
我该做作
oh you are the sunshine in my life
but i don't really know
需要你的时候感受你的温柔
能不能勇敢说爱

life is great!

2008-06-26T20:21:00.004+08:00

tagbacks(:

suhui: YA LA! freak. lets go sneak in. (:

suhui: hehe, i went.

pris: YO

pris: liked? LINKED? OHH, YOU MEAN LINKED.

rachael: linked! (:

jessica (:: LAZY. :D

jessica (:: YEA! so qiao lor.

jessica (:: lol. SMILES BACK! (:

licia: how could you!?! lol. HELLO!

.rEbEcCa.: LOADS OF LOVE BACK!!!

FANN: linked! (:

JOJO :D: YA! i use scissor. COOL! you are a chopper i'm a snipper. HIGH FIVE!

JOJO :D: lol.

SHAYTING: yeapyeap, i see you everyday! lol

TANYING: HEYYOOO!

today was ~~bad~~ FANTASTIC day. lalala. i'm very happy today. everyone makes me happy. show and share rehearsal was fun! ave and serene are such natural actresses. GOOD JOB! and JIAYOU 2A! LETS ROCK THE HOUSE DOWN WITH OUR PERFORMANCE! (:

and yea, just read yijun's post about his trip to brunei. he injured his leg. awww. take care! hope to see you in school soon, senior!
i realised something about us. and it's funny.

bygones

2008-06-25T20:11:00.003+08:00

someone's been making me pissed lately. but i have decided to forgive that person countless times cause we're good friends. sorry, if i did lose my temper at times, i was having PMS. lol. so yea, try and change your attitude and I'll change my attitude too.

note to self: let bygones be bygones. (:
stop highlighting my secret messages, zhidan. LOL. and yea, Thursday is LOVED. lalala.

LONG LONG POST

2008-06-22T18:06:00.002+08:00

fri was a fun day! 2A BBQ is loved! (:

first jo came to my house. she was supposed to come to my house at 10 but that super puntual reached at 10.30. LOL. then we went e!hub meet shelton. watched the happening! i loved that movie i tell you! IT ROCKS LA! but idk why jo dont like it leh. shelton and me find it damn cool.

after movie, went ws to meet zl ash zd and boon lee. then went arcade. I LOVE PARA PARA AND THAT AUDITION MACHINE. i rocked at para para. i got S leh. first time play so pro already. hahas. bhb. then later we went ntuc buy bbq things and i started getting stressed cause a lot of ppl were calling me. so i started kb-ing alot of ppl on the phone. SORRY! I GET AP WHEN I'M STRESSED!

later go back home prepare bbq things & practice dance for a while. lol. then jingwen's mum fetched us to pasir ris park. PIT 40 <3

we played games like some pass the message then zd that super pro in memorising things person memorise 20 items in like 20 secs. SIAO LA. dunno wad. apple bookmark condom donkey egg cow milk huan huan bei bei carrot. WAHLAU. i forget so many le. lol. then treasure hunt. quite sian la. but then it was fun bribing the gamemasters. damn funny la. shermaine wanted to kill me and minli for trying to sabo the other team. LOL.

FINALLY IT WAS BBQ TIME! EAT LIKE PIG. i ate one whole bag of fishballs. FISBALLS ARE SHIOK LOR. glen lim came and help us too. then later i realised the sky was dark and moody so went to the beach emo with zd and shelton. later jo jw and hf came and make me very high. jo dug this super deep hole. it's like i can stick my whole arm in la! practiced dance again. lol. then hf jo and jw went back to play monkey and we 3 emo people remained at the beach. talked about alot of things. felt much better after getting everything off my chest. then mr wee came and say dunno wad later elmo come out of the water and zd that sadistic say elmo will carry a knife and kill us. LOL. then shelton suddenly recalled the comment hf made about bungee jumping. LMAO. we emo-ed for more than 1 hour. learnt alot taught alot. beaches are really the best place to let go of your emotions. that's why it's on my list of loved things! (:

later waited for mummy to bring back the ice box before i went to e!hub. and like 9 people squeezed into a five seater car. ROFL. then got police somemore. at some traffic light, the car beside us also squeeze alot of people. damn funny la. we were like showing thumbs up sign to each other. mummy dropped me jo jw ys and yw off at e!hub thenught zd hf and shelton home.
played para pare again. took neos. played the basketball game with ys. we owned man! went home at 11.30. damn tired day but it was worth it! (:

one more thing: THANK YOU MUMMY FOR LETTING ME STAY OUT!

sat was an equally fun day. celebrated keane's b'day at changi village hotel. pigged out again. the food was too irrestible luhh. ): then zilian with rach and jess. (:

later went to all saints for steamboat. O: EAT ALOT HOR. met suhui hongjun chelsea and nick. ate talked played. afterwards we went field slack then nick threw the softball until damn high and it got stuck. LOL.

mummy then fetched me go mama's hse. eat porridge. ATE SOMEMORE! watched 斗牛，要不要 and hana kimi(japanese version) and finally went home.

CONCLUSION OF THE DAY: thank you to everyone who brought back life into my hols as you know i have no life during the holidays. (:
cant wait to see you again. lets catch up on each other.

quiz(:

2008-06-22T00:23:00.002+08:00

bored, do a quiz then.

Tagged by suhui :D

1.If your lover betray you, what will your reaction be?
snip his ballz lor. lol.

2.if you have a dream come true, what would it be?
world peace

3.Whose butt would you like to kick?
TOO MANY! :D i like owning people's butt.

4.What would you do with a billion dollars?
BUY A BIG BIG BIG HOUSE FOR MY FAMILY! (:

5.What's your ideal lover?
him. duh.

6.Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
obviously being loved.

7.How long do you intend to wait for someone you love?
not too long.

8.If the person you secretly like is attached, what would you do?
try and make him see i'm a better choice in a indiscreet manner.

9.Is there anything that makes you extremely happy?
his smile, friends and ICE CREAM.

10.if theres a choice between friends and boyfriend, what would you choose?
friends, they have been there longer for me.

11.how do you see yourself in 10 years time?
still studying i guess.

12.who is currently the most important person to you?
GOD, MUMMY, DADDY, BRO, ALL MY FRIENDS AND HIM.

13.what kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
EMO KIA but super loved!

14.would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
single and rich.

15.whats the first thing you do when you wake up?
check for sms then go toilet.

16.would you give in all for a relationship?
no. i'm more important

17.if you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
the one that makes me feel like i'm whole and happy, the one that can just put a smile on my face with the most simplest of actions, the one that wont hesistate to say, 'i love you'

18.what type of people do you hate?
those that assume i'm a bitch before knowing me. come on la, i try and be nice. you dont accept, too bad.

tag 8 ppl :D
1)rebecca
2)jingwen
3)huifen
4)zhidan
5)fengjing
6)jessica
7)rachael
8)shelton

_|_

2008-06-21T23:59:00.003+08:00

pissed off with everything right now. GAHHHHHH! okay, i promised myself not to say the 'f' word and gosh, my mouth is itching. i shall break my fast for the moment. :x

FUCK LA! my freaking life sucks. nothing goes right! i need a break. i need time to think.

okay that sums up everything. post more tmr.
erase all my worries, can you?

secretly posting(:

2008-06-17T09:50:00.004+08:00

Tagbacks(:
`jingwen: GOSH WHAT YOU STARING AT?! lol
`jingwen: giant have so many type. carrefour also have.
`jingwen: ya lor, hurt my feelings. ): HAHAHA !
suhui: HAHAHAHA ! tyty. (:
.rEbEcCa.: you're loved too!
HUIFEN: big head = big brain
.rEbEcCa.: I LOVE YOU LEH. (:
.rEbEcCa.: relinked.
kahhui!: YOOOOO! :D
lynette: HELLO NETTY! (:
'zhihui.}♥ : hahas. you rock too! loves.
shelton: YA
shelton: yea
shelton: what you think? lol.
shelton: is a hello and a smile counted? HAHAHA !
shelton: =.="
Hui Ju: of course i know you! (: yeap, i'm a monster who's sexy. lol. lets meet up and have mac together one day!
EdBert: YEAP YEAP! IT'S NICE!
JOJO :D: You will always be my babeh too! NONO! you're potato's baby! (:
chelsea: HEY FELLOW HORNY! (: sad hor. YEAP! lets go for the steamboat.
zhidan: not emo okay? I'M HAPPY! (:
suhui: yeap yeap, lets go.
lynette: HELLO!
lynette: yea
lynette: sad ): lets have another one soon
SHAYTING: np :D
SHAYTING: tyty. you too. and yea, didnt go. but i heard we have pe lessons together. YAY!

i'm having art in summer concerto now. damn sian. try and post about malacca when i get home yeap. (: have fun in brunei, boy.

I'M BACK BABY!

2008-06-16T22:47:00.003+08:00

HELLO! I'M BACK! (:

malacca was fun but i shall post bout it tmr or something cos my parents are saying that i'm showing signs of addiction to my desktop. =.=

tagbacks tmr too! (:

and awwwww, i really hate that i missed camp echo. steamboat, here i come!
没有你，我发现自己无法感动。You're the sunshine in my life. 我不知道需要你的时候，感受你的温柔，能不能勇敢说爱你。

I CAN FEEL THE 空虚!

2008-06-12T15:22:00.004+08:00

i feel damn 空虚after SUMMER!追赶跑. wahlau. i hate feeling this way. i wanna go for camp echo but then i have to go malaysia! KAO! i want to relieve my 空虚ness. GAHHHHHHHHHHHH!
people who are going for camp echo must report to me what happened hor!

SWIMMING! WOOHOO! 2ND IN OVERALL YEA? NOT BAD! WE ROCK! (:

GRRRR! TUITION LATER. AHHHHHHHHHHH! LAST DAY BLOGGING! GOING TO MALAYSIA TMR. YAY. MISS ME. (:

this is what i call style.

2008-06-11T17:49:00.008+08:00

i was looking through photobucket and i discovered like the coolest culture to me in america, it's called scene and i think the people there are like uber cool. this is what they look like.

they are like damn cool. i seriously love their hair. i know you will label their hair, make up and clothes lian. but then i admit if this culture did exist in singapore, i will be a part of it. they are what you call the so called emo kias. they like alternative music, eyeliner, skinnies, coloured hair and piercings. i can already imagining the people judging them. why cant some people be diifferent in expressing themselves? why must everything be so cookie cuter? these people are cool. their look totally rocks eventhough some extremes do cut their wrist blah blah. gosh, i wanna be a part of them. their motto rocks la.

they sound so confident right?! uber cool la. so much better than some cookie cutter super sexy girl group. no originality at all. this is what i call style.

Sentosa

2008-06-10T23:23:00.007+08:00

tagbacks(:

huifen: YOOOOOOOOOOOO! :D

suhui: thnks babe. loves. <3

jessicaMEI: hahahas, yea.

jessicaMEI: finally realised. but like damn freaking irritating luhh.

jessicaMEI: my class so pro. make me insecure. hahahas. and your results are good okay!

jessicaMEI: i lazy pig leh. hahas. thnks for cheering me up. loves.

yuquan: I DONT MISS YOU LEH. I'M NOT DENYING YOU KNOW! and yes, very random. lol.

junny1nh0: yo. added.

huizhen: WOOHOO! YEAP! and linked.

junny1nho: linked. (:

yonghong: linked. (:
pingshuang: relinked. (:

YAY. i went to sentosa today. i shall let my pictures do the talking.

rachJie suntanning. but she never get tan leh. only become a lobster. HAHAHA !

the many unglam faces of me. and doesnt rachJie look so sexy? i go there look so suaku. everyone was wearing bikinis. but i wont dare to wear. i'm a 飞机场. and i'm telling you. you like muscle man who are hot? go sentosa. eye candy everywhere.

actually there are supposed to be more pics, but then they are all with rachJie. ):

cant you tell that i cant breathe? but i make a smile so you wont see.

special in your eyes.

2008-06-09T15:37:00.002+08:00

BACK FROM CAMP! YAY!

camp was great! i was like damn HIGH everyday. especially during the mass dance last night, nicholas and me were like the highest. poor cherie was my partner and i nearly killed her. HAHAHAHA !

during the amazing race, my group, 'swimming', started off terribly. we're like one of the last few groups to leave the first station. but then, we emerged 6th. NOT BAD HOR! thank you nicholas for bringing the street directory and yonghong for helping me carry my crumpler during the race, yea. (:

i officially am afraid of hainan jifan now. shayting and the rest keep playing and playing then i play until i scared. SHAYTING IS IN LOVE WITH THAT GAME I TELL YOU. hahahas. suhui, huizhen and me reminisce of our childhood days so we played pepsi cola 123. do you remember that game? it's the game where you have to step on your opponents' foot. damn fun.

and i think after this camp, i'm finally ready to accept christ into my heart. our heavenly father is truly great and he loves me. (:

but i wanted to use this camp as an escape from reality. just to submerge myself totally into a dream away from my problems. little did i know, my problems would come along too. why did the 2 people that i wanted to runaway from come?! GRRRRRRRRR! father above, is this a test? why cant i have peace in my heart? i need to get away.
why are you always there? are we meant to be? i see your eyes are always glued to me, cant we make it something more? we are pathetic. i know you think of me. cant you just open your freaking mouth? am i that tough to get? just talk dont stun. i will listen. seriously, sometimes i regret being in love with an idiot like you, boy.

wtfxzxzxz

2008-06-03T16:55:00.003+08:00

i hate bottling up my feelings. school, family, friends and him. everything is one freaking mess.

SCHOOL - everything is so damn fucked up. things might seem to be going my way but what crap la. my results are like okay only. HELLO?! i'm like one of the last few in class when i hv a 73.9%. what shit?! 2A is seriously too pro. i dont belong there.

FAMILY - i feel like the black sheep. my brother is the sunshine boy and i'm like the emo freak. my mother always ask me, " why you so chou mei ku lian? wanna spoil my day? " shuddup la! you always adore didi for being SOOOOOOO cute then say me for being moody. i moody, your problem ar.

FRIENDS - actually nth wrong la. they are my support system. without them, i dont know what will happen to me.

HIM - idk la. our relationship is damn weird. i try to understand him but i cant seem to. i want to talk to him but i dont hv the courage. what happen to the super confident me, did that girl just die thnks to his gaze and smile? even if he knows anything, he's not saying anything and like the all's perfect. now that's damn mind boggling. he supposed to be fucking sunshine la, not my worst nightmare.

GRRRRRRRRRRRR. god, help me. i can only put my faith in you now.

2008-06-02T18:54:00.002+08:00

TAGBACKS, baby
yuquan: YO! :D it was okay i guess. hahahas.
zhidan: I'M SO PEACEFUL OKAY! you get a sense of calm arnd me.
gen: genevieve
gen: gan
gen: is
gen: the
gen: lamest
gen: person
gen: in
gen: the
gen: world
gen: EHHHH ... NO LEH! xD
gen: update already la.
gen: it doesnt leh. =.=
gen: I'M GOING TO KILL YOU. ROFLMAO.
maine: yea. so welcome back! (:
EdBert: hahas. thnks!
lynette: HEY NETTY!
.rEbEcCa.: AWWWW! that's so sad.
.rEbEcCa.: are you sure? (:
jessicaMEI: EH,
jessicaMEI: I ASK YOU TAG LONG LONG TIME AGO YOU POK! lol.
jessicaMEI: BLEAH!
jessicaMEI: LOVE YOU NOT. hahahahahahahahas. jkjk. <3 ya.

woohoo, it's the hols yea. staying home is quite boring la but then there are many things to distract me. went out a few times nth much. seriously, thnks to sch, i hv no life this month.

people, jio me out to play bball. i want to sprain more fingers. AHAHAHAS! i just sprained another finger. COOL MAN. SPRAIN MORE. (:

i'm bored. LET ME LIST MY TOP FIVE SONGS! (in ascending order)

5) Realize - Colbie Caillat

If you just realize

What I just realized

That we’d be perfect for each other

And we’ll never find another

Just realize

What I just realized

We’d never have to wonder

If we missed out on each other, now

4) Mercy - Duffy

I love you

But i gotta stay true

My morals got me on my knees

I'm begging

Please stop playing games

3) Is It You - Cassie

Is it you? is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me?

Could you be the one I need?

2) No Air - Jordin Sparks

But how do you expect me

To live alone with just me

Cause my world revolves around you

it's so hard for me to breathe

1) That's What You Get - Paramore

Hey, make your way to me, to me

And I'll always be just so inviting

If I ever start to think straight

This heart will start a riot in me

Let's start, start, hey!

all these have a certain meaning to me. girlfriends, you should know aye. :D

these songs are for you boy.

BORK BORK KEHH

2008-05-25T22:04:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOK SU HUI! I'M ADDICTED TO THE BOX! BORK BORK KEHHH~ love ya, girlfriend. thanks for the times you've been there for me. you've really been one of the greatest friends i could ever have. <3

WAHSEH! I JUST REALISED I'M NOT SAME GRP AS SUHUI FOR THE CHURCH CAMP. WTFXZXZXZX, and no fbts leh. then must knee lengths shorts. dumb dumb leh. :x

and today was damn fun! went to pasir ris park with my family then the super adorable darren loh was like WAHAHAHAHAS! imagine a scenario when a 14 year old girl who is nearly 1.7m and a 5 year old boy who is barely even 1 metre are cycling side by side .... DAMN HILARIOUS! darren and me were cycling like tat. then everyone was staring. so paiseh! and we had a picnic then the sushi my maid made was like OH MY GAWD delicious. my dad was damn sick and went to catch some freaking sea slug. after playing for one whole day then we went to central to eat. and then saw a shuai ge. then ira was like saying, "val ... he look like *ahem*" and i was like." YA HOR!" stupid me. LOL.

kao. tmr hv sc interview and i'm freaking out. JINGWEN JACINTH AND YUNWEI JIAYOU! WE CAN DO IT!

reading through the things we have talked about these past 9 months, i realised how much we know about each other now. to others, it isn't much but to me, it's alot for us who have never said a word to each other real life. i really treasure you, boy. thanks.

SCHOOL'S OUT BABY!

2008-05-23T21:19:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL'S OUT! WOOHOOHOO!
but then, my holiday is packed like shit. MY SCHEDULE IS FULL! DAMN! i wanted to spend quality time with girlfriends but wahlau ehh ....
i have,

camp
malacca trip
class outings
chalet
TUITION.
REPLACEMENT LESSONS BACK IN SCH!

so packed la! DECEMBER HOLIDAYS COME! and yea, just heard paramore's 'that's what you get'. it made me think of someone that was such a disappointment and all the mistakes i regret. sigh. seriously, i hate that person luhh. cb, think so freaking big lor.
are you what you make me feel?
cause right now, i feel invisible to you.

Mood swings _l_

2008-05-22T21:50:00.002+08:00

what's freaking going on with me? my mood is like a roller coaster ride. i seriously need to see a psychiatrist.. to all those that i have snapped at or been seriously mean to, I'M SORRY. i really need to control my moods.

TAGBACKS(:
i'm going to reply the may tags only. hahas.

SW: hahas. tyty.
SW: ty again. ahem will be proud of you. lol.
FENGJING(:: REVIVE LE
FENGJING(:: DUH! dumb as errrrr ... herself. xD
suhui: WAH. slacking hor. but cyq, who cares? (: and of course, babe. LETS GO SHOPPING.
gen: okay, spam
gen: 2nd spam
gen: 3rd spam, KAO. no more le. not considered spam. HAHAHAHAHAHA !
Pris: YO DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD
Pris: (:
Pris: the allied parties fight was fun. BAG FIGHT. WOOHOOO!
Pris: LOL! change le. NO MORE RED.
suhui: OHMYTIAN! go sleep luhh. dont need to mug until so late.
jessica: MEI! you're loved too.
huifen: ORH OKAY, PORK, CHAR KUAY TEOW'S GIRLFRIEND(:
huifen: hahahas. forgot leh. SORRY ZHIDAN!
suhui: BUGIS BABY BUGIS. lol.
`jingwen: babehhhhhh, i update le.
`jingwen: EHHH! I UPDATE LE. MUAHAHAHAHAS. (:
FENGJING(:: ya. (:
.rEbEcCa.: YOU'RE LOVED TOO, DODO!
amandaNG: heyhey.
suhui: YEAP! gal, you'tr filling up my schedule manxzxz.
Nick: YO ALIBABA! (:
FENGJING(:: DUH!
gen: tyty. and say 'I LOVE YOU VAL. YOU ROCK' (:
gen: no. nothing you do surprises me. hehehehehehes. (:
FENGJING(:: appauled means disgusted leh darling. hahahahas. should be amazed. (:

wah. stupid tags. lol.
and american idol is on. bye (:

2008-05-18T21:38:00.002+08:00

YO! :D

today was like triple quadruple fun la. me, fengjing, meiyi and nicholas went to etp. we damn zihigh lor. SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM. then nicholas keep on calling himself alibaba. =.=
afterwards we went e!hub take neos.

now my head is like spinning thnks to the viking. LOL. AHHHHHHHHH!

baby when i think about you ... nothing seems right. i dont know what to say to you anymore. even a normal tag aint the same. i seriously hate that i love you.

Realize.

2008-05-14T19:46:00.004+08:00

Tagbacks(:

i have to many to reply. FEBUARY UNTIL NOW LEH. 1 2, 3MONTHS ! 3 long months of tags.

yay, the exams are finally. FREEDOM. woohoo.

so yea, after the super duper easy maths paper, sakae-ed with the fbt gang. first we went to vivien's house to slack because the buffet only started at 3 then we finished our exam at 10. =.= at first wanted to play audi but ended up got some problem so watched step up 2 the streets. i'm telling you that movie is the bomb. i wanna learn hiphop. it's like HOW THE FREAK DO THEY POP AND LOCK!? i tried it at home and it was like T.T

after huifen and jingwen (the smart people who went home and bathe) came, we went to cs. shelton, vivien and huihui was laughing like siao on the bus cause they claim jingwen was looking at something wrong but actually she was looking at some graffiti behind the seat. SPASTIC. then we went window shopping but i saw a ripples slipper that was too chio so i bought it. (:

finally it was 3 pm and we walked into beautiful sakae. i shall only post my photos tmr. lazy luhh. lol. then we we went to the arcade. met zann, carolyn and some 1e07 girls. hanged out at the para para machine. there was this guy and girl. they damn pro la. freestyle leh. afterwards, we went home then i bumped my friend at the bubble tea store. wanted to go kajiao him for free bubble tea but didnt cause i'm such a nice person. took 17 back with huihui and finally reached home after a long day. (:

FBTS ROCK. lol. Vivien Lim, my molested turtle is not in the picture cause she volunteered to be my camera man. hehe. xD

Val <3

whatever.

2008-05-05T17:50:00.002+08:00

I'M REALLY DAMN PISSED WITH YOU LA. I DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU THEN YOU GO ARND TALKING BULLSHIT BOUT ME. SERIOUSLY? WHAT WRONG HAVE I DONE TO YOU LA?

you not happy with me can come talk to me right? why do you need to use that kind of method to sabotage me? yeahyeah. whatever. a lot of people know. BUT DO YOU HAVE TO TELL EVERYONE?! wahlau eh, i try to be nice also cannot. f la.

spoil my day. jidan.\

Ps. dont ask me who is it. you will never guess who. and i know nobody comes to my blog la. but yeah, i angry until must come post. nb la.

REVIVE LA.

2008-03-19T21:13:00.004+08:00

lol. i've decided after ONE MILLION BILLION GAZILLION to post. YAY!

soooo, life has been fun i guess.

CHINA WAS DA BOMB! so many new experiences! i made new frens from ahs like LJ and edbert for example. and we stayed at some hostel which kinda DIRTY but honestly i think i had most fun there. CAN FLY KITE LEH! lol.

i cant believe i climbed the great wall for the third time. seriosly, it may seem boring. but the view up there is like OMGAWD. so prettaye la!

jingwen and serene are like BESTEST OF THE BEST roomates. now my official fav brand is NIKE. jingwen should know why. wahahahas.

the china students are damn friendly la. like during the break, they swarm around you like dont know wad. then i felt like some celeb. =.=

AND I LOVE SHAOLIN MONKS. huifen and me agreed that they are SEXAYYE. lol. jingwen was like looking at their pecs and going WOOHOO. wakakas. then serene, the pure one was like giving us the diao look. serene is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO pure leh. ahahas.

then the guys started using my name to replace the f word. for example LJ said, "the weather is so VALERIE-ing cold. what the hell la. ><

and now we have a group name called the CORRUPTERS. lol. i'm the CORRUPTED cos i was PURE before i came to china. (:

here are the corrupters. (:

it's not really clear la. BUT I LOVE THIS PHOTO! lol.

i shall post more photos and reply my tags another day then.

bye,
val <3

ily but you will never know.